Ugh. I hate myself.
I keep making insensitive jokes about Hitler meanwhile my friend is fucking Jewish-
I'm so fucking dumb. I don't care. Guess what, fuck you.
Not talking to anyone specifically, more like myself.
I'm literally losing all sense of control right now. I am acting like a complete fool and I could care less. I'm so fucking done. I just want to... I don't know anymore. Does anyone know, really?
I feel so shitty, but I feel happy at the same time.
*happy pills intensify*
I'm vibing to the saddest songs and smiling.
Arms open, hands wide, heart crackin'
It's okay, I'm cryin', but I'm laughin'
A little piece of rap I'm making lol. It's about a relationship, I guess.
Also, another thing. I need to get this fucking straight before I lose it-
6 people I have some kind of romantic relationship or joke or something, I don't even know-
1, Has a crush on me
2, Has a spark of feeling for me
3, Ex-wife who still likes me a lil
4, Ex-wife who kinda hates me
5, Current wife
6, Current husband
So yeah, 6 goddamn people.
Ugh, why the fuck does my chest hurt for some reason... It does that a little too often nowadays...
Shit... I hate myself...
