Secrets

C10

Carly Ann Snow hated the Hogwarts Express .

It was noisy and she had no choice but to sit with other students . Harry Potter was one of them and he kept eyeing her , making her feel quite uncomfortable .

Neville Longbottom , Luna Lovegood and Ginny Weasley was also there .

Luna kept reading her magazine upsidedown and Carly found that interesting ,though the others seemed to think she belonged in the loony bin .

When Ron and Hermione joined them later on , Ron grumbled about being hungry as he plopped down beside Carly unceremoniously , jostling her a little .

She shot him a glare and shifted away , bumping into Neville ,who gave her a look that clearly said ' Seriously ?' .

She mumbled an apology and stood to go outside into the hallway .

Harry Potter stood up also,  telling the others that he'd be right back.

Then Carly found herself being dragged down the hallway to the storage car .

She didn't protest , having expected something like this after ignoring this boy for so long , that he'd probably gotten fed up with her actions.

When the storage car's doors slid shut behind them he pulled her into him , his lips immediately seeking hers with a fierce hunger that left her breathless .

She didn't realize that Harry Potter could be so.....She sighed into his mouth and tried pulling away , but he held her tightly and his kisses became less hungry .

Then finally he pulled away and just held her against him .

" I missed this ," he murmured into her sweet smelling hair , inhaling deeply.

She didn't say anything. She hadn't missed it . She associated their kissing with the time she was an outcast . She still is , sort of .

" I want you to know that I'm sorry . I'm sorry for treating you the way I did . I didn't see you as a person . I....I saw you as an object and that was wrong of me .At first it was just lust but now ... I think ...I think I'm in love with you ."

She stiffened  and tried moving away from him , but he held her tighter and she knew then that she was screwed .

She didn't think that she's in love with him , she know that she is . That's the problem . He think , she don't .

" Har_" she paused ," I mean ,Potter , I don't think it'll work out for you and me . My feelings didn't matter before and I doubt it'll matter now ."

She moved slightly to look up into those captivating emerald green eyes  of his .

" I can't forgive you just yet . The way you treated me .... No , I don't forgive you . "

She tried to move away from him again , but he held her tightly still .

" I don't expect you to forgive me , Carly . But I would like for us to continue the way we did . I want you . I can't deny that . "

She frowned . His mind was on a one-way track it seemed .

" You're not allowed to call me Carly ," she said ," I was never allowed to call you Harry . I don't want you . I feel disgusted to even harbor such a thought . You destroyed any good feelings inside me . So , no ...find someone els_"

His lips shut her up and she struggled for a few seconds against him before giving in and before she knew it , they were rolling around on the floor , getting all sweaty and she didn't fight him again .

Later she felt a little bit disgusted with herself for giving in when they walked back to their compartment , his hand holding tightly onto hers .

She was a bit of a mess , but she didn't care much about that . She just felt that she should've fought harder .