The First and Forgotten Concubine

Chapter 46: Would you Accept the Pretty Lies or the Ugly Truth?

"Th-that's not true..." bulong ko sabay hawak ng ulo ko, nagpatuloy parin sa palabas ng mga memorya ko kasama si Dark. "Hindi ganong tao si Dark."

Ito ang pinakaunang beses na makita ko ang ganyang expression niya. He was cold, he was never been cold to me. He also called me Lumine sa memorya na iyon.

Just like what Rael did to me. "Why would I lie about something like this princess? Wala akong intension na magsinugaling." She kept circling around me.

Naiirita na ako sa mga ginagawa niya. "They're both the same, treating you as a second choice." Hindi tumigil ang pagpatak ng luha ko.

"You keep having lifetimes, once na mamat-ay ka out of old age. You will have another life... of course di mo maalala si Dark." She explained.

"But he remembers, that's why he keeps coming back to you. You were his mistake... he shouldn't have approached you kung iiwan ka lang din naman sa huli." Dexie continued.

"Hindi ka nalang sana niya nilapitan kung gagawin ka lang naman palang second choice, you don't want to be a second choice, right? Princess."

Hindi ko alam kung mina-manipulate ako ni Dexie or is the memories she's giving me wrong. Pero it feels realistic... and true.

'Anong ibig mong sabihin? May pupuntahan ka bang importante?' the me in that lifetime asked Dark... the same person who I'm with in this lifetime.

'None of your business.' Maikling sagot nito at naka-ready nang umalis. Naramdaman ko ang pagkabahala ni Lumine sa buhay na ito.

'D-dark, pwede mo namang sabihin sakin without giving me a cold tone right?' hindi sumagot si Dark kaya nakaramdam na ng takot si Lumine...

'Sorry, may mali ba akong ginawa?' hindi parin sumagot si Dark kaya bumuntong hininga nalang si Lumine. 'O-ok lang, I understand. Then, aantayin nalang kita.'

Dark left me in that memory, I kept waiting for him na bumalik. Gumawa ako ng libangan, I made some masks and start collecting weaponry.

Kung dati, magakasama kami. Ngayon sa lifetime na ito, ako nalang mag-isa. the me on these lifetimes keeps asking kung saan siya nagkamali.

The me in this lifetime keeps overthinking, maybe ayaw na niya sakin dahil pumapat-ay ako ng tao? Or maybe he hates me because I'm too fierce?

Does he prefer gentle ladies? Nakita ko siyang nakangiti nung may kinausap siyang mahinhin na babae. Or maybe he hates me because I feel jealous easily?

San ba ako nagkamali? If he comes back... magiging mahinhin na ako tulad ng gusto niya. He probably likes the soft girls.

The me smiled and nodded with determination. Gagawin ko ang best ko para mapasaya ulit si Dark, I won't hunt or k-ll for a while. Siguro yun din ang rason kung bakit nagalit si Dark?

Maybe I smell bad whenever I come to him, pero wala naman siyang pake non dati. That could be the reason, right? Wag kang mag-alala Dark!

I will do better and aayusin ko ang sarili ko, para naman hindi ka na ma-disappoint sakin at di mo na ulit akong tawaging Lumine.

Though it's the first time he called me Lumine... ano kaya ang nasa isip niya? He called me by name and hindi na Light.

Nakita kong sinampal niya ang sarili niya para mas ma motivate pa siya. If Dark comes back someday pag ok na siya, I will do my best to be better for him.

I will do the things he like! Pero what if... hindi na niya ako mahal? Anong gagawin natin? No- we won't stop like this... kaya ko to because I'm Lumine Noelle Cypress!

Kung may ayaw siya sakin, I can fix it! kaya ko to no? hindi ako magi-give up ng ganon lang, knowing Dark's the only guy who has the guts to come to me dahil nakakatakot daw ako.

So kaya kong gawin lahat para kay Dark, he's worthy for my determination and love! Ganon nga Lumine, antayin nalang natin na bumalik si Dark.

I'm sure masurpresa siya dahil sa ginawa mo and he'll be happy by then. The me, waited for days... weeks... months... till it turned into years.

For how many years, he didn't come back. Till one day, may narinig siyang rumors na nakita nila si Dark. They said they saw him in another town.

Kaya nagmamadali ang ako na pumunta doon, it was raining heavily. Pero gagawin niya ang lahat para makita si Dark.

She even brought gifts para masaya si Dark. It was the masks na ginawa niya by hand, it's a solid mask that will last for many years!

Hindi mapigilan ang excite ni Lumine when she got into the carriage, bahala na ang ulan. Hindi na siya makapag-antay na makita si Dark.

Pero... tulad ng sinabi ni Dexie... she got into an accident. The carriage is passing a cliff at medyo madulas dahil sa ulan.

May nahulog namalaging bato from above and hit Lumine's carriage. The carriage then fell into the cliff... the me in that lifetime, died tragically... still holding on the gift.

Despite na mamat-ay na siya. she prioritizes the gift na ibibigay niya kay Dark, she made sure na hindi ito mababasa at hindi masisira.

The gift survived. But she didn't.

Namat-ay ako because of an accident, pero sabi ni Dexie. Dahil iyon sa pinabayaan ako ni Dark ng ilang taon.

As a guardian, kailangan mo talagang i-guide ang naka-assign na tao saiyo. If not, then they will die tragically... "Naalala mo na? how he left you just for a position?"

Nanginginig ako ngayon at hindi makapagsalita. The flashbacks of how happy we were before ended up me dying tragically.

It ended up me being alone... and a second choice. Tulad nung ginawa ni Rael... "Simula were given a destined partner and that is Rael Inseo Malcolm!"

Masayang sabi niya sabay palakpak. "he was just created, sakto ang timing. Dapat lang ano? So that you won't stay with Dark anymore." Dagdag niya.

I made a face naman despite naiiyak padin ako, Si Rael? Destined partner ko? No way, I probably fell inlove with him dahil destined partner lang kami.

Pero something doesn't feel right- naalala ko ang unang buhay ko na natalo si Dark- bakit siya andon? Why did he lose? And why did he come back for me again? Nagugulahan ko, marami pa akong tanong.

"You have been with Rael Inseo Malcolm for 3 lifetimes, ikatatlo niyo na sana ngayon kaso umiba ang ihip ng hangin." I stopped- what?

"Anong ibig mong sabihin?" tanong ko, nginitian niya naman ako. Sasagutin niya sana ako but the world we're in right now started an earthquake.

"F-ck, ang bilis niyang makarating ah?! But anyways we still have more time, princess. You better choose wisely, you either go with Rael... or Dark."