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I need a guy who longs for love that he doesn't experience in his life time
And here I am ready to give the love I didn't experience but learned from the world that taught me how to live
Me a dead tree in a cold winter waiting for a happy spring to hug me
I hate myself for wishing that way
No I can't ruin someone's life for my selfishness
I feel sorry for myself being this way
Am I really able to love that person?
Its so pity of me for expecting someone to love me where I'm not sure about promising myself to them
Am I really capable of loving someone?
Had the God Almighty really created someone who can love a person like me
Lack of self-love, self centered and what I am?
Is a person in this world who wants to see me in that joyous spring
I don't know
Maybe for person like me this winter is the the Neverending season
I never ever in my life time wish to spoil that wonderful smile that fills happiness in everyone's hearts
I never want you near me
I want you to hate me so you never once think of seeing back even while passing by my side
I wish you to be happy
I'm enough to see you smile
I wish you to have someone more better
More loving more lively more reliable and the best natured one
Hey where are you that one person ?
Am I going to see you in this lifetime?