Undefined Pathways

Driving Through the past...

⚠️ Warning- Depressed drama, Language, Love authenticity, Name shaming ⚠️

Today is my wedding day, a long wait since I've been dreaming of this day. Since I was a child I always had the will to get married to my love but I never realized that it would be so hard for me to do so. But today I was expecting a new ray of sunshine to just shine for me and my fiance, unfortunately, it's not as special as I thought it'd be. There's no joy in the day, no color in the sky, life feels like a failure today. I'm losing my love today, things feel like misery, it feels like I have lost my best friend, my love, my soulmate, my boyfriend...my everything.

16 years ago...( In 6th Grade )

Holidays ended today, we're starting with the next grade today. I'm in secondary finally. New grade, new classmates, new friends. A fresh new start today...

Today feels different. Elijah felt different today, I never expected I'd say this for Elijah but for sure I felt the love today "I Love You, Elijah". Of course, I don't have the guts to say this in front of him. To be honest, I felt it for a month or two, I've not told this to anyone yet and I'm pretty sure this is the right time to tell Scarlett about it. I'm so excited.

Hey Scarlett, I have to tell you something really important; Yeah, go ahead Akira; Listen dude I think I like Elijah; Oh, I knew it, don't worry it's just an attraction which goes away in a day or so, doesn't think about it, love is just nonsense; Oh no dude don't stay in a dilemma it's not nonsense, it does make sense, the day you'll fall in love you'll understand the feeling; Wait for me, in love, not gonna happen anytime soon at least, anyway, If you feel like you like Elijah go for it, ask him, but in my opinion, he's not a very great choice. Honestly, he doesn't deserve you, you are way too worthy for him, just try to move on.

I didn't receive a very good response from Scarlett but never mind. The same day when I was looking for Elijah when I realized about the most popular crush in our school 'Elijah is crushing over Caroline for the past 4 years!' I broke down at that point.

I hate Caroline, such a bad Bitch, Ahh!! Why do all the bad things happen to me...I told Scarlett about it. She started confronting me and told me about Caroline's and Joshua's relationship, no one knew about it. I couldn't stop thinking about how broken Elijah would be when he knew about their affair. He loved Caroline endlessly, that's what I've heard and I didn't want that bond to break even if I needed to adjust.

A few years passed, Elijah realized about Caroline and Joshua's relationship..he was heartbroken...Everyone grew up, everyone entered their teenage...A cold war scenario was developed between Elijah and Joshua...and my love towards Elijah was just growing without any limits...Scar and I were the same though...we all grew up we were in 8th grade now...

It felt like growing up changed me...I was more open to my friends now...I loved to be surrounded by people every minute...Silence is what I hated the most now...I turned out to be more Confident... I loved the way people looked at me now...Everyone's perspective towards me changed...Unfortunately, I didn't have the guts to talk to Elijah by now, but hopefully soon...