Forever My Lover | Peppa x Suzy

10: Bonfire Night

A few days had passed since I saw Louis at the rooftop. We haven't spoken since.

I've been questioning everything these last few days. Do I feel things for Louis? I couldn't, he's my best friend. And besides, why would I suddenly feel this way after years?

What about Peppa?

After that kiss I felt so guilty, like I had betrayed her. It's all so confusing

What is going on?

But fuck that, tonight's where we celebrate how Guy Fawkes failed to blow up parliament. What a holiday

I put on my slippers and went downstairs to see Gavin cooking pancakes, as usual. He only ever does this when he's in a really good mood, so it's best not to get him angry

"Well well well, look who finally woke up! Want any pancakes, Suzy?" Gavin had always tried with me. I guess I just didn't like how he came into our lives so suddenly, and he knows I'll never see him like a father

"Sure, what pancakes are you making today?" He was shocked to see my response

"What? No 'you're not my real father' or 'why would I ever take something you made'? I feel blessed"

"Well if you keep talking like that I may just bring that back" I joked with him. He tossed a blueberry at me to get me to shut up

"They're blueberry pancakes, I know your mother likes them"

Gavin Gorilla was a very sweet little man. He was about 5'4, only a few inches taller than I am, and he cares so much about my mother. He treats her like a goddess, like she's the only thing he will ever want in this world

It's kinda sweet, but not when they're making out whilst you're trying to eat breakfast

Which they were doing right now

Simon and Sam were fighting with their swords in the living room, pretending to be pirates. They dressed up as pirates for Halloween and ever since then, refused to be anything else. It's cute, except for the amount of food they've spilt on their outfits. They refuse to take them off.

I planned on going to the field to watch the fireworks with Louis. He said he has "something planned", i just hope it's nothing too bad

The kiss was nice with him, it really was. And, honestly, I'm so confused about my feelings towards him. And I still haven't spoken to Peppa since Halloween. We need to talk, I can't stop thinking about her

Everything about her draws me in. The paleness of her skin, her short pink hair, her curves, her scent, how her eyes are so perfect. I could get lost in those eyes for hours

Oh my god I'm thinking about her again. Tonight is just about having fun, that's all

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"Alright Mum, I'm going!" I yelled, grabbing my hat

"Suzy, come back here! Just one second is all I want" she's going to give me the mum talk, isn't she?

"Okay, remember. No-"

"No drugs, no strange men, no sneaking off, no drinks and no unprotected sex. I know mum, you don't have to remind me again"

"I love you, y'know. Now have fun! Go on, and please stay safe" she hushed me out of the door into the cold

Pulling my coat closer to my body, I put my woollen hat on and walked to the field. It was freezing.

Louis said he'd meet me right outside the bathroom building, he said it was the only thing he'd know would be there