walton imagines

my home.

today was a really bad mental health day for me.
but i was trying to push through it because the walton's invited me to dinner.
i wanted to see javon because he is my boyfriend but i have been having panic attacks all day.
but i'm doing this for my lover so i have to get through it.
my mom pulled up to the walton house and i saw jaden and javon sitting in the golf cart outside making tik toks.
i gave my mom a kiss on the cheek and told her i loved her before getting out the car
javon ran up to me and picked me up.
i wrapped my legs around his waist and shoved my face in his neck
it felt nice to be in his arms and made me feel a little better.
but then my insecurities starting talking and i felt like i was to heavy.
i pulled away quickly.
"put me down please" i said to him
" did i do something" he says putting me on the ground
"no i'm sorry i'm just heavy" i look down
"baby your not heavy, are you ok what's going on?"
he questions
"nothing javon god, leave it alone" i say walking over to jaden
"hey y/n" he smiles and hugs me
"hey j" i smile hugging him back
"you ok? you just stormed away from wanna" he says
"oh my god can y'all stop questioning me!" i say walking away into the house.
i go to the bathroom and sit down on the floor.
i felt another panic attack coming on so i got off the floor and splashed water on my face before walking to javon's room and sitting on his bed breathing heavily.
i try to calm myself down but it wasn't working.
i hear walking up the stairs which just makes me panic even more.
my heart starts racing and my eyes begin to fill with tears.
javon walks in the room and sees me and immediately realized what was happening.
he came over to me and sat on the bed in front of me.
"baby, look at me" he says
i look up at him, our eyes meeting.
"breathe with me ok?" he says taking deep breaths in and out
i follow his breathing and my heart begins to slow.
i sit there breathing with javon. once i catch my breath i crawl into his lap and hug him tightly.
"i'm so sorry baby, you could have told me it was one of those days" he says rubbing my back.
"i didn't want to ruin your day" i cry
"you can never ruin my day, i love you so much" he says hugging me tighter
"i'm sorry" i sob
"don't apologize baby, i'm not mad" he says kissing my head
"i love you wanna" i say into his neck
"i love you forever y/m/n" he says holding me
After that long hug i never felt more home.
once me and javon started dating i realized that a home isn't just multiple walls and a roof, my home was him.

this story was requested by lenaperezz she is so sweet and i just wanted to thank her for giving me the idea. you guys follow her <3