My Inner Workings

What Would You Say

What if I don't want to change anymore?
What would you say?
What would you do?
How would you feel?
What will your faces read?

Will I see tears behind those gaping mouths?
Will I see hate inside those eyes, that refuse to meet mine?
Will I sense poisons, if I put your skin beneath my hands?
Will I feel the thorns of your words in the drum of my ears?

What would it take to look upon me with a straight face?
What would it take for you not to stare as I turn my back?
What would it take to stop your screaming whispers in my ear?
Don't you know I can hear them?!
Even when I can't,
Even when your lips are shut.

I can hear them when u call out my name,
I can hear them when I give you a side eye,
And I can hear them when u give me yours,
I can hear them from, when I was 7 years old,
And I can hear them, from when I will be 20.

You're silent whispers scream, when the room goes quiet,
You're silent whispers shout, when I look you dead in the eyes,
You're silent whispers go silent, when I look with in myself,
You're silent whispers die, when I smile in the mirror instead of cry.

If i told u that I loved myself, would you disown me?
If you saw me smiling at my picture, would you cry?
If I told u to love what u made, would you hate it?
If I asked to be had as I am, would you sigh?

Tell me, what would I read, if I read your unreadable lips?
What would I see, if I looked through the windows of your soul?
What would I hear, if could hear your silent thoughts?
What would I know, if I listened to your heart beat around me?

What would I smell, if you parted your lips to speak?
What would I taste, if licked all the tears off your cheeks?
What would you say, if I said I didn't want to change anymore?
What would you say, if I said that I was okay with it all?