Meant to Be💙|NBA Youngboy

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                                                                           Ashley Dior Lovelace💝

I woke up to the buzzing of my phone. I unzipped the mattress to see who it was. Diamond was calling so I answered it. "Wsp?" I said with a yawn. "Wsg .. did I wake you up?" She asked then chuckled. "Sure in da hell did." I said sitting up a little. I check the time to see that she den woke me outta my sleep at 7:30 in the morning. "It's 7 in da morning." I whined laying back down. "I know but you usually up, atleast I thought." She said then laughed. "Keke keke." I said fake laughing. "It's funny to you?" I asked rubbing my eyes. "Yuh, but I was worried bout chu, I wanted to see how you was doin?" She said settling down. "I'm good whatchu mean?" I asked her yawning quitly. "Ion like da last time you was in der, shi didn't go well." She said. She was tellin the truth tho, I'm almost caught a case. fr fr. Ima tread lightly I should be good. Prince turned the other way still asleep. "I'm ite." I said to her. She didn't answer back. I think she knew that I was lyin a lil. "Ite mane ima check on you later den." She said. "Bet." I said then hung up. I'm takin my ahh back to sleep. Ion why someone would wake me up at this time anyways. I went to go back to sleep but then my phone started ringing again. "Hello?" I asked answering it. "Hey." I heard Trell say. "I knew you would be up around dis time." He said lyin his ahh off. I be asleep I don't get up for another 2 hours. Him and Diamond a lie. They asses don't know shit if they think I be up around this time. "Lyin ass." I mumbled. I heard him laugh. I miss his smile. "Whatchu gon do today?" I asked him. "Check wit Montana and see how the process of you and Prince comin home is goin. Den I gotta go to the studio and record some. Den prolly go home and think botchu." He said nicely. "Oh ok coo." I said smiling to myself. "That's all you gon say?" He snapped. "Chill I'm smilin isn't dat enough?" I laughed. "Maneee." He stretched out. "I miss you boo." I whined. "I miss you more." Kentrell said seeming like he was smiling. "Well ig I'll let you go. Get sum rest shawty." He said nicely. "Ok babes." I said then he hung up. I turned my phone off and put it back in the mattress. I laid back down and went to sleep. I ain't got time foe dis.

Prince woke me up talkin bout sum the gang comin to visit. The visitation wasn't supposed to started until next week tho. Ion coo ig. I got up and tried to make myself look more presentable.  When I saw Trell walked through the door I was so happy. I jumped on him, he caught me smiling. "I missed you too mama." He said then sat down on the bed with me. "How you holdin up in here?" He asked as his smile disappeared. "I want to go home." I told him looking at the ground. "I know I'm trying my best to getchu outta here." He said feeling remorseful. I nodded. Well luh nigga can you try a little harder. "Whatchu been doin?" He asked looking over at Prince. "Ok." He replied back dryly. Trell nodded then turned back to me. "Why you cut my head off in dat post you posted ona gram?" He asked muggin. "Chill, ion." I said cracking a smile. "Ite." He said then rolled his eyes. "Where gang em at?" I asked him. "Montana workin hard on yo case still, Ben wit sum girl, and Joe sum where." He shrugged. I nodded. "Oh and T miss you." He said pulling out his phone to call her. "I miss her soooo much." I said happy to talk to her. She answered muggin the camera. "Tf you want Kentrell." She said as soon as she answered. "Well damn." I laughed. "You ain't even have to do dat." Trell said muggin her back. "Is that my girl?" She asked ignoring Trell. "Sure is." I replied takin his phone putting it on me. "Mane I missed you bruh." She said with a smile. "I miss you too T. Whatchu been up too?" I asked sittin back. "Nun much been worrying like hell bout chu." She said licking her lips. "The whole gang been." Trell mumbled. "I know I'm ite." I said cracking a smile. "You sure girly?" She asked makin sure. "Yuh when I'm outta here I'm crackin a party jus so you know." I said throwin up a sign. "Hell naw." Trell said laughing. I mugged him. "Yeah it's happening." I said smiling. "Ite bet." She said nodding. "Ite mane you takin up my time wit hea jus texted hea later." Trell said takin the phone back. "Ion got hea numba stupid." She said glaring at him. "I'll text you it." He said waving bye. She rolled her eyes then hung up the phone. Trell put his phone is his pocket then came over and wrapped his arms around me. He then laid his head on my shoulder. "I miss this." He said talking about our cuddles. "Me too." I said letting out a breath I didn't know I was holdin in. "Ima getchu outta here." He mumbled. I played in his hair. "Fasho bubba." I said trying to keep faith. I haven't really been feelin dis. Like I wanna record songs and car rides I miss bein coo wit gang. I know Prince wanna get outta here too. This not the way I imagined helping to keep my brother safe. Now that mama gone, I gotta provide for him. Make sure that he's ok. I feel like I failed him. "Whatchu thinkin bout?" Trell asked playing with my shirt. Something he likes to do a lot. "Nun baby." I lied still playin wit his hair. "Don't lie to me." He mumbled, relaxed. "I think I failed him." I said lookin at Prince get up and walk across the room and sit in the corner wit his headphones in. "You didn't, what happened that night is not yo fault. You tried yo best to protect him. It ain't nobody's fault but B.R. This city brought dis shi out, not you." Trell said sounding like he was pissed. I didn't reply back, I didn't even nod. How can I nod when I know I'm not agreeing wit him at the moment. I do believe dat dis shit is my fault. Maybe I could've prevented it. Maybe if I would've stayed low after it happened then mama would've still been here. Did I take it as a joke? Nah that could'nt have been the problem .. All I know is that I want her back, ASAP. Ma calmed me, she let me know dat I still need to have faith, dat I need to respect where I come from. She also told me dat it doesn't matter what background you come from, that that doesn't have to be who you are. I listened but I didn't. Cuz I still got in to gang related shi, I still sold drugs. I still did the shit that I knew wasn't right, but I did it to feed my family. But is that the proper excuse. Or is there no excuse at all? Cuz at the end of the day I still ended up in da system and so did my brother. I'm still in a fucked up situation. I'm tryna figure out how to get myself out dis hole. Why can't I have a good life. Where there's not drama and no extra shi. I jus don't understand. I do remember when ma talked about praying. And how dat works. Even people who sin can be forgiven. I can't help but to think what God said to Tyrone. Did he say anything to him about what he did to my mama. "DIOR." Prince yelled. I jumped outta my thoughts. "Whathcu yellin foe?" I asked. "We was tryna see if you was alright, you sittin here starin in one place. You good?" Trell asked worried. "I'm coo." I replied. "We know you Dior, we know when you not really good." Prince said sittin by me. "Luh bro I'm good." I said to him then sat back. "Sir vistin time is over." Mrs. Charlotte said walking in the door. Trell sighed then turned to me. "Call me." He mouthed. I nodded. "I know your not ok, and I wanna know wsp witchu." He said getting up. I nodded again as tears formed. "Don't." He started to say. I sniffled. Prince gave Trell a hug. I let the tears flow down my face. "You have to stay strong, for me." Trell sighed. "I can't. That's all I've ever did is suck it up, Kentrell. 'C'mon Ashley suck it up' 'why you bein bitchy?'" I rambled on goin over how my life's been so far. "Dior-." Trell said walkin over to me. "No don't touch me." I said moving out of his way. He sighed then looked at me and walked out the door. "You ain't have to do allat." Prince shrugged then walked over to the bed. Mrs. Charlotte walked out and closed the door behind her. I took Prince's phone and put it in the mattress. "Before mama was pregnant witchu we was homeless. We ain't have shit." I started to say to him. He looked at me listening. "Then when she met up with our dad again, you were created. Our dad wanted a boy .." I continued on. He nodded listening. "So he gave us a place to stay, he was the one that paid da rent and everything. But then he started to put hands on mama, and mama wasn't takin it well. So he took everything, everything from us. That left us out on the street again." I told him. Tears fell from my eyes. "At a very young age I saw all of this, mama told me that it wasn't gonna be easy, and that I have to stay strong." I told him. "Then it was that I had to make sure dat you was ok." I said wiping my face. "So I held to my word and did exactly that." I said sniffling. "So don't tell me what I should and shouldn't have done." I semi-yelled. "You don't even know half of the shit we went through jus to have a roof over our head." I went off. "Ash I didn't mean to-." I started to say. "Well you did." I interrupted him and laid down. I turned over and silently cried ... People don't understand when to back tf off.

                                                              Kentrell DeSean Gaulden💚

I can tell that I hit a big nerve, I fr didn't mean too. I think it's cuz she emotional rn. I got ina car den pulled off. I headed towards the house, stopped and got me sum to eat, den went straight home. I got out the car and locked the door then walked to the front door. I unlocked in then walked in. The gang was sittin on the couch laughin and shi. "Hey yb." Ben said waving. I nodded den walked up stairs and up to my room. I closed my door and locked it. I got my sack out then started rollin sum up. I need a moment to myself. Once I was down I started takin dat shit down. I got up and walked out the room and downstairs. I went to the fridge and got a water. I then walked back up the stairs and went back to room and locked it. "Drawin symbols ina sand, till da pain gone baby." I sung lowly then took a few puffs. "Movin onto da land where da gate close baby." I sung then took more puffs. Then someone knock on my doe. Mane what. "Open da doe." I heard Ben say. I shook my head no. "It's coo." I said takin more puffs. "Put it out now." He said bangin on my doe. I rolled my eyes. I ain't puttin shi out. Soon he went away, like everybody else. They always go away, then don't stay for long. Wish they did, but they don't. But I ain't finna chase no one and force dem to be in my life if dey don't wanna be. I texted Dior jus to check on her. She read my message but didn't reply back. She still mad. I sent her a pic of K3 that I took of him the other day. She sent a eye heart emoji then started typing something. "Sorry about earlier, I'm mentally goin through a lot." She wrote. I read it then started typing. "It's all good ma, and I know that's why I'm tryin to getchu outta der." I wrote then sent it to her. She read it then started typing. "Preciate it." She wrote then sent it to me. I got off of my phone and finished up my blunt. I then got up and unlocked my doe, don't nobody come in it anyways.

                                                                     Diamond Claire Williams❤

I haven't checked in wit Ash in a lil bit, I needa see if my girl alright. I called her up, she answered. "Wzm." She said as soon as she answered. "Heyy, I was thinkin of you so I wanted to call and check in wit you." I said laying down on my bed. "Oh ok coo coo, ayy I got sum to tell you." She said. I gotta notification on my phone it was her requesting to ft. I hit agree then I saw her face. "Starting today you can come in and visit but only for an hour. And I can't go anywhere wit you. Better then nothing." She said with a light smile. "Ok coo, ho does tmr sound?" I asked her. "That sounds coo cuz Trell jus left." She said sittin back. "Ohh okk, I needed check in wit him to see how the process of you comin home is goin." I said licking my lips. "I'm coo Diamond." She reasured. I nodded. I still want hea home. Ain't no way I'm gonna just let her stay der if she say she doin ok. I worry a lot about her. "I worried bruh." I told her. I heard her sigh. "I doin ok, that's it that's all." She said. "Bet-." I started to say. "That's it that's all." She interrupted her. Mane ... ain't no way Ima just let this go ...

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