Chapter 11 Loneliness

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Chapter 11

A/N: There will be switching POVs a lot- so please keep that in mind.
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Tw: Crying, missing someone.
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He gave Michael a goodbye and left the server.

Tubbo pov:

I said bye to Michael, and logged of the game. It was 8 PM so i decided to get something to eat, and then think of something else.

I couldn't think of a single reason why? I felt a sudden wave of loneliness. Everything was grayer than usual, I didn't know why.

I went downstairs to the kitchen, where Puffy had left the so-called "lunch" she had cooked today.
It was baked pasta, although it didn't look bad-.

But i was glad i had the last two toasts Clay made himself for dinner and never finished eating them.

Before he went into his room again, just so he could call George on discord. My cousin is such a simp-.

I ate the surprisingly not cold food. And went to get a shower.

- a little time skip cuz' why not-

- after the shower-

I had a pretty decent shower i had in a while. I was mostly thinking about stuff, Random stuff actually-.

I was thinking about how i should decorate Michaels room in my and Ranboo's house in a snowy biome we found on the SMP.

I was thinking about Tommy, and why is he sick for so long? I was getting quite worried about him at this point..

I hope he's okay....
I MEAN- his dad is LITERALLY the school principal, he could be faking stuff, just not to go to school for what i know...

Weird thoughts came through my mind as i was changing into my pj's.

I lay down on the bed, staring at the ceiling, until I decided to look on Twitter.

There was nothing much, so i just scrolled through Instagram.

There were pictures of Random 15 year old girls trying to look "hot" and "attractive" to get the boys.

I never liked people that could do anything, just to gain fame or to get some random compliments.

"Jesus-" i said to myself, as i turned off my phone.
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I looked at the empty spot next to me....

There was Nothing there, No one to be exact.

And here it is again, a wave of emptiness and loneliness,

What's going on?
What's wrong with me ...

*I can't miss him That much, can I?* I thought.
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I knew I would see him on Monday, but I already missed him,

"Oh god- I'm being clingy- jesus- Everything but not that-"

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But- part of me screamed to be in his arms again...

There was something about him-

When I fell asleep on his shoulder and woke up in his arms in the morning...

I felt safe.

A feeling of security that I haven't felt in a long time ...

When he had his arms wrapped around me, it felt like he'd never hurt me, As if he would hide me from the bad things of the world...

As if He'd Protect me, and only me... Like it was just me and him... Against the world.

I- was happy, but now, it's just me,

Alone...

"I miss him so much already. " I told myself, when I suddenly felt tears on my cheeks.

"What are you doing to me boo..."

I thought, as i let the tears fall from my eyes to my pillow.

" I met him 3 weeks ago, not even..."
"And i already feel like i fell for him.."

I said silently, hugging the bee plush he bought me on Friday.

I didn't fight the tears.....

I let them wash away the pain that was given to me by life.

It was too much for me.

I was just glad I could let it out.

I hugged my bee plush, tightly.
Pretending, like he's holding me again, in his arms,

Not Ever wanting to let go....

I closed my eyes...

And Dreamed about us, me and him.
In a flower field, chasing each other down.

I wished that dream would never end...

Maybe... It might happen one day...

No... That's stupid anyway.. Such a silly little idea, coming from a silly teen boy.
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A/N: i hope you enjoyed!
Sorry for the bit of angst TvT

But it will get even worse >:D
(From now on)
:3
Just you wait ^^.
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