My Safe Space

<A morning of flashbacks>

I woke up in a haze to a tap on my shoulder I looked up to see my brother standing next to me

"Can I help you it's way to damn early" I groan pulling a pillow over my face and swinging my body so I wasn't facing him anymore  felt a body next to me I assumed it was Kie she's always at the chateau everyone is it's kind of like our hang out spot and I love it we're never alone I don't blame her, her parents don't exactly like us

I felt another hard tap on my leg this time

"John B if you it me one more fucking time I'm gonna strangle you" I threw the closest object to me which was another pillow I heard a satisfying thud and snickered to myself

"Trust me Jules I would like to sleep all day but we have to meet with the Social worker, about whose our guardian" he gave me leg another tap and was walking outside "I'll be outside when your ready"

"Okay whatever" I felt a vibration on my stomach it was my phone, what god awful person is texting me at this hour, I looked a the notification

Rafe(1)- hey you busy tonight?

A small mischievous smile played upon my lips but then faded...and I know what your all thinking no he's not my boyfriend he's a causal guy I like to fuck from time to time, nobody knows except jj it's because he caught us one time and I haven't seen him since
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2 months ago

I was sitting on the hammock as it swayed it the wind waiting for Rafe to come, listen I know it sounds bad whatever but if you saw what I've seen you wouldn't be so judgmental....and besides he comes when nobody's home..anyway I am wearing a black bralette under one of my brothers beach looking shirts that was unbuttoned half way so you could see my bralette, paired with light washed shorts and black sandals. My hair in a messy bun held by a hair clip pieces of blonde strands peaking out.

I was playing a game on my phone when the roar of an engine snapped my focus away from my phone, must be rafe's motorcycle. I always told him just to take a boat and meet at the dock he doesn't fucking listen I swear.

I let out a huge sigh, rolling my eyes I got up and walked towards the front of the house, kicking my shoes off as I entered, once I got to the front door I opened it I saw Rafe sporting a clean blue polo with white shorts and some sneakers, okay but who wears white shorts in obx...kooks that's who....

"I'm pretty sure both sides of the damn island heard your loud ass bike" I rolled my eyes motioning him to come in before anyone saw him

He flashed his all around half smirk at me kicking his shoes off  leaving him now barefoot. "you act as if your any better yourself, you come into my bedroom window so loudly my whole house probably heard you" and with that comment he grabbed my hand walking us towards the bedroom. As soon as we were in and the door was shut I was slammed hard against the door he grabbed my hands pinning them against the door kissing me hard in the process. He effortlessly pulled my shirt off my frame placing small kisses over my collar bone sending shivers down my spine. I pulled his shirt off revealing his perfectly toned body. I ran my hand up them receiving having my ass being grabbed causing me to let out a small moan. He unbuttoned my shorts allowing them to slide down my legs. He walked over to me as to push me towards the bed but I beat him to it pushing his body on to the bed, I proceeded to climb on top of him straddling his hips. I received a satisfied grunt on his end. So I decided to move my hips grinding on him I felt him become hard underneath me. He gripped me by my waist

"You might wanna stop Jules" he growled

"And why ever would I do such a thing" I responded back

"Because your gonna make me wanna start coming more" because at this point we only hook up like once a week

"We wouldn't want that now would we-" I was cut off by his lips smashing onto mine unclasping my bra with ease in the process. He eyed my breasts like some hungry animal before sucking one of them, while squeezing the other one. I let out a much louder moan than before. I think I was too caught up in the moment to realize the door opened

"Ayo John B where is-" I know that voice to be none other that jj "what the fuck?" He ran out of the room and I heard a door slam...aww shit my ass is grass

I pushed myself off rafe and threw one of my brothers t-shirts on to cover my top half "get dressed and go" I sternly told him. Following the sound of jj cursing to himself I found him outside by the fire pit

"Jj...I know your probably pissed off...but let me explain"

"Jules of all people on the island you are dating Rafe Cameron"

I held up my hand "Oh hell no I'm not dating rafe we kinda just hook up from time to time" he looked at me dumbfounded before responding

"Who knows??"

"Nobody...we'll now you, do you really think i would wanna tell anyone that shit" I rubbed my arms because I was cold because I was in an oversized t-shirt and my fucking underwear "John b would murder rafe if he found out"

"I mean yeah Jules, Rafe Isn't exactly the guy you should be seeing" he smirked at me causing my cheeks to become a very light shade of red god that stupid smirk

"What do you mean 'not the kind of guy h should be seeing?" I rubbed my temple

"You'll find out one day, and of course I won't tell anyone, your secrets safe with me Jules" he came over and wrapped his arms around me I couldn't help but sniff him, he smelled like weed and salt water

" thanks jj" I said muffled into his chest
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And from that day forward he didn't say a word, which for me I'm very grateful for, I clicked the notification with a sigh and typed my reply

Jules- you haven't texted my in two months and now you want to fuck? Sorry can't doing stuff with my brother, maybe another night dipshit

I managed to work up the courage to get up from the couch and walk over to the bedroom to get dressed while rubbing my eyes i smacked into a girl, I couldn't really make out her face as groggy as I was

"Can you watch where the hell your going" I looked her up and down

"Bitch your in my house for god knows what reason and your telling me to watch where I'm going...know your fucking place"

I rolled my eyes and shoulder checked her as I walked pass to get into the room I walked in to reveal a shirtless jj smoking a blunt I diverted my eyes from staring and went to grab my clothes I settled on a black crop, dark blue skinny jeans and my black and my black van slip ons.

"Keeping it casual I see"

"Turn around dumbass" I heard a huff and I saw he turned around. I slipped into my clothes and tapped him on the shoulder. I grabbed the blunt and took a drag

"You know John b hates you doing that" sounding like a dad,

I rolled my eyes " are you trying to be my father because last time I checked I don't have one" I stated as I threw my hair into a messy bun

"We're just protective Jules" I sighed

"We'll don't be I'm not a baby anymore...but thanks for looking out" I gave him a side hug and grabbed my phone off the couch when I heard a horn

"I'm coming  John b cut the shit" I then proceeded to walk outside and got in the van and drove to meet the social worker