no, man this, this can't be me.
there is no way i'm still alive, still trying.
looking at my life on a wide spectrum i should be crying right now.
vomiting.
depressed.
quitting.
but, somehow i find myself smiling.
laughing.
helping.
praying.
learning.
have i discovered.. joy?
does joy normally come with a hint of feeling insane?
i didn't think confusion and confidence could mix.
a year ago, hell two months ago i had nothing to give to anything or anyone.
i had nothing for MYSELF, not even a cup.
so how .. does my cup now runneth over?
if this is insanity then i'm sorry for misinterpreting you all these years, hand me my straight jacket with pride.
this can't be me.
it's not,
it's YOU.
- letter to jesus
