Skinny Girls// a short story

after- 6

I sit at home in utter silence and my heart beat quickens. I feel like im lost.

nothing helps.

this numbness.

this darkness.

im being devoured

i can't stop it

this shaking and crying.

I can't stop it.

I know where they are

I go to them

I take it in my hand and I go and I go and I go

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" My brother asks and he drops to his knees and calls for my mom and dad

it's a scrambling time and i can't breath nor can i think

They pick me up and carry me to the car.

My brother stays behind with his girl friend and he looks really worried and she hugs him and gets a bit teary eyed

I am admitted to the part of the hospital Patrick told me not to go to.

I see him in the haze.

He looks so hurt and sicken and worried.

Im sorry Patrick.

Im sorry Ellena.

Im sorry for every thing.