Bea
"What the hell is this?" tanong ko kay Jho at pinakita yung picture nila nung friend niyang Ged tapos may video pa
Kakauwi ko lang galing trabaho at nakita ko si Jho dito sa sala
Kaya pala may pa note siya this morning kasi may gagawin siyang ganto
"Love kanina yan. I went to Ged's place to fix the painting" Jho
"That's all you did?"
"Yeah"
"Talaga ha? Ano bang meron yung taong yun na wala ako? Naghahanap ka ng ibang bubuntis sa'yo?"
Jho slaps me
"Nagtatrabaho lang ako Beatriz, sa tingin mo ba gagawin ko yan?" Jho begins to cry
"Bakit hindi ka nagpaalam?!"
"I d...don't want to b...bother you.....n...nahihiya akong m....magpaalam o m....magpatulong sa'yo. You f...feel so cold Bea" Jho's crying
Agad naman akong nakaramdam ng guilt sa sinabi ko
Hindi ko na kayang makita at marinig si Jho na umiiyak kaya agad ko na siyang niyakap
"Sorry love shhhh sorry I didn't mean to say that. Pero why? This is still me, nothing changed. I love you so much, please be open naman sa'kin"
"I f...feel so worthless" Jho
"No you're not. You're worthy of everything.........I'm sorry for being cold nasaktan lang rin ako love and naging busy sa work. But please don't ever think that you're worthless mmkay? I love you so much love"
Hindi nalang nagsalita si Jho at umiyak nalang ito at nang tumahan na siya hindi na niya ako kinausap
Jho
Sobra akong nasaktan sa sinabi ni Bea kanina. Ganun ba ang tingin niya sa'kin? Yung magpapabuntis nalang basta basta sa iba?
Nakaupo ako ngayon dito sa bed ng nakasandal sa headboard at may chinecheck ako dito sa Macbook ko since tapos na rin naman akong kumain at mag wash up
"Love" Bea
Tumabi siya sa'kin
"Why?"
"Are you mad?" Bea
"No I'm not"
"Love can we talk?" Bea
"About what?"
"About our misunderstandings" Bea
"Ok lang, It's all my fault naman" sabi ko at sinara na yung Macbook at linagay sa bedside table
"Love you have to be honest kase tapos you didn't tell me pa kung sino nakakasama mo" Bea holds my hand
"Wala na akong ibang tinatago, I stopped taking pills na. About Ged naman he's just being grateful and ganun rin ako kaya we took a picture, wala kaming ibang ginawa hindi gaya ng nasa isip mo"
Simula nung nalaman niyang nagttake ako ng pills tinigil ko na ang pag inom nito
"Love I don't forbid you to take birth control pills yung akin lang bakit mo tinago? You know I've always wanted to have a child right? You can tell me naman kung ayaw mo pa or you just don't want me para naman alam ko. Nagmuka akong tanga sa pagtatago mo at sana man lang you keep your distance from that Ged" Bea
"Alam ko Bea, ako lahat yung may mali. Kasi ikaw yung laging tama, ikaw lagi nasusunod"
Ganito naman lagi si Bea, lagi niyang pinaparamdam sa'kin na siya ang laging tama kapag may misunderstanding kami
"What are you saying ba? I'm just saying my side para maayos na to......hindi kita maintindihan Jho" Bea
"Kasi hindi mo nararamdaman ang nararamdaman ko"
Humiga na ako at tumalikod na at doon ko na binuhos ang luha ko
"Love help me fix this problem naman bakit ba kasi umiiwas ka?" Bea
"Maayos na nga diba, ok na. Ako yung mali ikaw yung tama at naiintindihan kita kasi magaling ka, matalino lahat"
"You don't understand me. All I want is to fix this problem and settle everything pero ikaw hindi mo ako naiintindihan" Bea
"Tinatanggap ko na nga diba? Ikaw yung tama, lahat ng mga ginagawa mo ay makakabuti para sa atin. Masaya ka na?"
Humiga rin si Bea and she hugs me from behind
"Love I don't want us to be like this. I miss the old us, please wag na tayong mag away, I love you so much" Bea at may nardaman akong basa sa neck ko
Yung ulo niya ay nakasiksik kasi sa neck ko
Matagal niya akong yinakap
"Love please........I love you so much" Bea
Ayoko na rin naman na ganito kami ni Bea at gusto ko na rin namang maayos to
"I love you, sorry sa nagawa ko"
"No more hidings mmkay?" Bea
"Yeah"
"I love you the most Jho" Bea
Bea
New day
Tapos na yung work ko at susunduin ko si Jho sa shop niya kasi I want to go out with her, gusto kong bumawi sa love ko
Bumili rin ako ng sunflower for her
Nang makarating ako sa shop pumasok na ako dala dala ang stem bouquet of sunflower. Dumeretso agad ako kay Jho
"Hi love" sabi ko and I hug her "uhhh here" binigay ko yung sunflower
"Oh para san to?" Jho
"I'm courting you diba?"
Jho blushes hehe
"Tayo na nga" Jho
"I know love matagal ng tayo hehe"
"Hehh let's go na magluluto pa ako ng dinner natin" Jho
Lumabas na kami at agad na pumasok sa car at nag drive na ako
"Love are you comfortable with your outfit?"
She's wearing a dress
"Yeah of course, why ba?" Jho
"Ok, we'll be eating in a fine dining restaurant"
"Huh? Why? May occasion ba?" Jho
"Nothing love but I wanna make it up to you kase. Because I missed my girlfriend, the only girl I love the most" I said then I kissed the dorsal side of her hand
"I love you Bea" Jho
I feel like I'm blushing, kinikilig ako eh
"Uyy wag kang kiligin love ako lang to haha" Jho
"I don't knowww I feel so much kilig kase everytime you say you love me"
"Ikaw talaga" Jho giggles
"I'm just so in love with you kaya siguro ganito hehe"
