𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓰𝓸𝓵𝓭𝓮𝓷 𝓵𝓸𝓽𝓾𝓼 {𝓚𝓷𝔂 𝔁 𝓶𝓸𝓭𝓮𝓻𝓷 𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓭𝓮𝓻}

💙(Name's) past💙

-(Name's dream)-

You flutter your eyes open to see... darkness... nothing but emptiness... where were you? You got up and looked around to see nothing... there was absolutely nothing... everything was just black...

"Hello? Anyone there?" You asked but got no response to it...

You try to look for anything you could see but.. you saw absolutely nothing but darkness....
You sighed as you sat down hoping this was just a dream and it was going to end soon...

As you just sat there, suddenly a white screen came up in front of you. It slightly startled you but you had already calmed down from it.

You look at the white screen with confusion when suddenly the screen changes...

On the screen you saw someone... your younger self in your world....

Why was the screen showing you yourself but younger..?

As you continued to look at yourself on the screen when you noticed something....

......You noticed how...tired and exhausted your younger self looked....

Your younger self looked stressed, exhausted, sad and tired.... But when you were that young you never noticed any of that... maybe you were pushing yourself too much.....

As you continued to stare at the screen you saw your little sister run into the room happily as she came to your younger self who was sitting on the couch. She had a piece of paper in her hands with another hand holding her bunny plushie.

"Big sister! Look!" Your younger sister said happily jumping around as she showed you the price of paper where you saw... your entire family... it was a drawing.. of your mother, father, you and your sister happily smiling and having a picnic together....

"I made this for a project! Miss Anna said to make a drawing of what you wanted for Christmas!" Your sister explained....

"I want papa, mama, you and me to have a picnic with snacks and we could play games! Doesn't that sound fun!" Your sister said climbing onto your lap and hugging your waist....

"Of course... I hope we can have a picnic one day... all together..." your younger self said... sounding sad as your younger self smiled sadly at your sister....

Only if papa didn't die... maybe your sister's wish would come true.....

"Sis! When is papa going to come back from the military?" Your sister asked as you could see your younger self look at her with sadness...

"Sis... you see... papa had actually gone to a place called heaven..." your younger self said as you hugged your sister.

"What is that?" Your sister asked

"It is a very nice place for nice people..." your younger self said gently patting her head

"Really?! Can we go visit papa one day?" She asked as you smiled sadly... such a sweet and nice little child....

"Sure... but only when we grow very old... and make sure to be good, only then we will be able to see papa, okay?" You said as your sister smiled brightly

"Okay! I will make sure to eat all my vegetables and bring good marks! Will that be good?"

"Yes... it will be very good..." your younger self said as she hugged your sister tightly in her arms...

......Why.... Was the screen showing you your memories...?

The screen changed to another scene....

You saw your younger self again... looking just as tired and stressed as before....

Your younger self was on her study table doing her homework when the door to the bedroom opened....

It was your little sister holding her bunny plushie and a blanket...

"Sis... can I sleep with you tonight.... please..." she said as she came closer to your younger self.

"Why? What happened?" Your younger self asked, concerned....

"I had a nightmare...." She looked sad...

Your younger self gently picked her up onto your lap and said "what was the nightmare about?"

"...In the dream you said you didn't like me... and wouldn't cuddle with me because I was younger than you..." she said as she started tearing up.

"Oh no no no! I would never do that! I will always love you no matter what happens!" Your younger self said as she hugged her tightly.

"Really?..." Your sister asked

"Of course silly! Why would I ever not like spending time with my precious little sister,huh?"
Your younger self said, smiling softly at her.

Your sister smiled too and hugged you back slowly, closing her eyes....

Your younger self took the blanket from her hands and put it around her small figure which was now sleeping on your lap...

Your younger self then went back to doing her homework while trying not to fall asleep....

You chuckled a little.... Your innocent, naive little sister....

The screen changed again....

You saw your younger self putting a glass of water on your sister's bedside table with a package of medicine.

"Here is some medicine to help you recover!" Your younger self said as sheq helped her get up...

"Thank you sis...."your sister said... your sister had a high fever...

Your younger self gave her the medicine and then put her back down to sleep...

Your sister closed her eyes slowly drifting off to sleep as your younger self laid her head on your little sister's bed staying awake for the entire night to make sure your sister was alright....

You remember that day.... The day you became so worried about your little sister and stayed up the entire night to take care of her.... You remember that....

The screen changed again...

It showed your younger self.... Sitting on your little sister's hospital bed....

"Big sister... Will I be okay?" Your sister asked as you could see your younger self holding back tears...

"yes... you will be okay... don't worry..." your younger self said gently caressing her cheek....

"You will go to meet papa...." You said as you gently hugged her.

"I will go to heaven?" She asked curiously.

"Yes...."

"Yay! I will meet papa! Will you come to sis?" She asked as she looked at you.

"Yes... I will come soon...." Your younger self said looking at your sister.

"Yay!! Then we will get to have a picnic! And we can play games and we will go for a walk together and we will catch butterflies and little bunnies!"
Your sister said happily.... She didn't understand what death meant....

"Yes... we will do all of those things...together..." your younger self said as she sighed...

You remembered this day... perfectly.... This day was one of the worst days in your life.... The day you found out your sister was going to die... and you could do nothing about it....

....one of the worst days of your life....

You sighed as you looked to the ground....
"Sis.. I miss you..." you said as a tear escaped your eye....

You sat there in darkness for the rest of the time... but your mind was too occupied with remembering how your little sister didn't even know the meaning of death.... She was very sweet and naive.... Not understanding such morbid topics... but now it didn't hurt as much...

I guess the saying was right...

If you keep suffering over and over and over again... you will slowly become numb to the pain...