Verse 1
Screams ringing in my ears.
Making them bleed and break.
Smile lingering for all these years.
But now, now they're all fake.
Their agonizing laughter echoing in my head.
It's twisted and cold, turning me to stone.
Thoughtless curses shot at people around me.
Blood running down my face, stinging and burning it.
Questions are filling my mind, where's my home?
It passed like a soft voice, and made me remember when I was free.
Running away, saying I'm alright.
Forcing the fear and pain down my throat.
You say I lost my creativeness, no I lost everything.
It pushes me to the front of the line, and I remember all that I loathe.
Chorus:
Let time be frozen, standing in this moment.
Escaping from my self hatred for just one breath.
Looking at the mirror, I lower my head in sorrow.
The consequences of my actions fall upon me.
I don't wanna live this life.
The shards of the glass become crushed in my hand.
Scars in my mind reappear and I hear wails.
I wanna die, but I don't want to leave you.
I'll suffer trapped in the hell that I created for the rest of my life.
Verse 2
Disappointment in myself, hatred for everything.
The innocent child that was born turned out to be like this.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it hurts me.
I smile to conceal the darkness.
Forcing myself not to cry, emotionlessly doing things.
But it all comes out on you, making myself hate life more.
You say I can control it.
No, I can't.
You don't understand, I don't wanna hurt you.
I've lost dreams, they're just a faint memory.
Hidden behind all my fear, brainwashing me to forget it.
Good days were just a few happy breaths, Pained days are a century.
The child in me is evil, wanting to hurt something.
I'm holding all my pain and anger.
One day it'll all come out, and I dread it.
I want a last piece of hope to hold on to, anything for an answer.
Chorus:
Let time be frozen, standing in this moment.
Escaping from my self hatred for just one breath.
Looking at the mirror, I lower my head in sorrow.
The consequences of my actions fall upon me.
I don't wanna live this life.
The shards of the glass become crushed in my hand.
Scars in my mind reappear and I hear wails.
I wanna die, but I don't want to leave you.
I'll suffer trapped in the hell that I created for the rest of my life.
Bridge:
This jail darkens as night comes.
Horror filled faces and I can't stop it.
I cry, I scream, I can't do a thing.
This hatred in my heart devours the remains of joy.
Silent cries in my mind sing.
Staring at the ceiling, awake all night.
Then lying through my teeth every day.
I have no one who'll dry my tears.
I don't have a shoulder to cry on.
All I have is myself and this empty prison.
Chorus:
What happened to me?
I don't want to be a bad person.
I'm tired, mentally and physically.
Soft sounds from the droplets of water falling on the window.
I cry again, my tears falling on my pillow.
I wish I could turn back time.
I wish I had someone who understood me.
I wish my life wasn't like this.
I wish I could smile again.
I wish I had a will to live.
Save me from this prison.
Though I know I'll be locked in it forever.
