" Mr.Killings you okay you seem off today ?" The doctor say making me look up at the ceiling
"I feel like I wanna die , I can't live like this no more I need to die "I say making the room go silent
"What is making you feel like this ?"He ask making me look at him
"Everyone ,everything "I say looking down playing with my hands
"I'm new to you I need you to tell me about yourself ,I need to understand you to help you okay "he say causing me to nod my head
"I was born to a mafia boss and a nurse , My momma had so much love for my pops but he was controlling had a short temper wanted everything his way and if he didn't get that he would go crazy and beat on us say shit like no one will love us and we need to die . One day my mom packed everything up my sister and brother and left me there cause I reminded her of him , After that he abused me said I had to talk to people a certain way to be loved and get respect , Had to do things like kill and take drugs to be a real boss so that's what I did and I got use to that life then his rival got to us cut him up in pieces right infront of me along with my siblings them he. made me drink my pops blood then he taught me things . I got caught and went to juvi ,got adopted but that didn't change me she tried her best but it didn't work gave me to her momma saying I was useless .So here I am today being one useless ass fuck Nigga who need to die "I say a he looks at me in disbelief
"Did you ever stay in contact with your mom after all of this ?"
"Yeah she say call her anytime but I can't get myself to do it plus I think she only want to talk cause I'm her only Child that's alive .
" Do you want to change ?"he ask me
"Yeah I do but this all I know , Know one really tried to tech me differently they just said stop this stop that "I say rubbing my eyes
"Okay and do you still do drugs?"he ask writing down on is iPad
"Yeah any drugs I can get I take , they don't do nun to my body I'm so use to it "I say shrugging
"Who do you live with , Or are you by yourself ?
"No ,I live with a girl I'm kinda forcing her but she cool I guess "I say shrugging
