Famous ~ [Jude Bellingham]

26

DABRIA POV

what the fuck

I cant belive what I just heard from jude

"I was going to try and avoid you since I thought you didnt want to be or have anything to do with me after that night which now seems stupid but I wasn't thinking. The day after I kept trying to bring it up to you but you kept changing the subject, which made me think you really wanted to just forget about it and move on. So I tried and tried to think the same and convince myself I didnt want to be with you, but I couldn't. I couldn't. So I tried to distance myself, which I made a horrible job at, but anyway getting back to the point, I really really really like you and Im sorry for acting like I dont"

these words were said moments ago from him, I know what he means but they feel so unknown at the same time

I haven't answered him cause Im still processing, its everything I want to hear, but somehow I can't belive its real

we have been over this over and over again and still we come back to the same spot

Jude is standing right infront of me just waiting for me to say something or react

"So that's why you were like that at dinner" I aks him and he nodds

this makes a lot more sense now

"Im glad you texted me cause I wanted to talk to you but chickened out" I say looking at the ground

"All I care is that we do talk about it and this whole overthinking situation ends" Jude says stepping closer to me and I nodd "I agree, all of this is unnecessary"

"Okay let me just tell you how it was for me since you just told me, so after that night I wouldnt stop thinking about it and how happy I was. But then the overthinking came and I thought about how you were feeling about it. I wanted to kind of 'play it cool' cause I thought that you wouldnt want to talk about it so thats why I was 'changing' the subject, then I realized how stupid that was since you were happy too so I wanted to talk to you but that was when you were 'ignoring' me" I say out of breath at the end

"this is crazy" he says shaking his head and chuckling

wait why is he chuckling, does he think im pathetic, probably not, hope not.

"look at all we had to go through just to get here" Jude says smilling and now I get what he's talking about, and he's right

"I mean, nothing has been easy about this" I say in all honesty

"just like its always been"

"I want you to know that I really like you Dabria, like how I told you that night, I meant every single word I told you and I still do, I want you to know im all in if you are"

my heart is about to explode

I smile at him, he has a serious face right now and im infront of him smiling like an idiot

I dont know what to say, so I do the first thing that comes to my mind

I close the space between us and standing on my tip toes I lean in and kiss him

my arms go around his shoulders and he holds his arms around my waist

when we pull back my tummy is full of butterflies and my knees feel like they're going weak

I look up at him and see him smiling down at me as I say "im all in"

he brings his hand to hold my jaw and kisses me again

im gonna die

I cant take this

my heart is beating like crazy

"I dont want to ruin the moment but I kind of already told all of the girls" I say with a tight lipped smile

he chuckles and shakes his head "you are unbelievable" he says Laughing

I laugh as Im now standing beside him "I had to tell someone!" I defend myself "Im sure you told someone too" I say

"yeahhh.. I kind of told cobe" he says scratching his neck "SEE!" I say making us both laugh

"you're not mad are you" I ask him about me telling the girls without asking him, he just shakes his head "not at all"

I shake my head with a smile as I think about what is currently happening

I really like this

"lets go to mines' to talk" he says as we walk side by side, with his arm around my shoulders, my head automatically leans on his shoulder

when we get to his we talked for a while about nonsense

"okay but what are we gonna do about telling family and all the media stuff? plus, were gonna be away for quite sometime when you have games or I have work" I say

"we dont have to worry about that, now were just going back to where we always stay in germany and we'll go from there, and about the whole family thing, im sure we'll figure it out" Jude reassures me

he's right, we have been away for some time quite some times, now its different cause were something

I dont wanna ask about what we are cause Im sure Jude doesn't have the answer to that either and I dont want to rush it

"yeah you're right, just gotta think about what were gonna tell your family who thinks were dating" I say smiling

he slaps his hand to his forhead "I forgot that we did that, NO i better say you did that"

"mannnn It was funny at the time, didn't even think about the rest I just wanted to piss you off to be honest" I say that now, but in all honesty I was gutted that It was only a foolish prank

Jude just shakes his head "my mate's from back home asked me about you"

eventhough im way too tired he still managed to catch my attention with that "who"

he nodds his head "Yep d'you remember Jack" he says and the name rings a bell in my head

"I think, was it the one with the chav girlfriend?" I ask which makes Jude chuckle "yeah, ex-girlfriend"

"what did he say" I ask him and right after I let out a yawn

"ill tell you tommorrow, its late now"

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I like this chapter, it's cute<3
have a great day<33