Short Stories

You did this.

You let me show my vulnerability. You thrived in seeing me uncomfortable. You hurt me. You wanted me to be this hurt.

I helped you. I did what I could. And then you set me aside, like I'm some old doll that nobody wants anymore.

You listened to me. Where did it go? You left me. You left me here, left me to rot.

These feelings boiled, they boiled to the surface and they aren't leaving now.

You used me to fill an empty hole in your heart. You let me feel unwanted. After you got what you wanted, I was no longer appealing.

You did unspeakable things with me at my most vulnerable times. You let me feel safe and then to take it away? What fucking monster are you.

I'm here. Every single day for you. I try to fix what we have. Yet I know what you do in your free time. And I know, I fucking know you don't feel bad for the way you make me feel.

I love you, more than I want to. But you hurt me. You hurt me but I will get back up. I will get stronger. You've tried to knock me down, but I'm not that weak.

I've gone through hell and back. I've spoken with the devil. And he always sends me back. It's not my time yet. So I won't fall again.

I've spent endless hours, wondering what went wrong. But you. You are what went wrong. You let the feelings go unnoticed. You picked favorites when favorites wasn't an option.

You knew my darkest secrets. I let you in. I broke my walls once again for you. You used me. You tore what I left. You ripped me open because you seemed safe. Your facade didn't last though and it's a shame to say you were my friend.

You made me think so many things about myself. You made me wonder if life was worth it. It is. No matter how many times you told me that it wasn't. No matter how many fucking times you said to me, 'kill all men'. I won't stand down. I won't let you put anymore holes into my walls. They're unstoppable for you.

No matter how much I loved you. I'm glad you're out of my life. You hurt me. You made me think I was worth something, just to take that away. I am worth something. I'm worth everything you couldn't give me. I deserve everything you couldn't give. I know you said it was because you loved me. No, you didn't. You loved my presence and the thought of me. Not who I was. And that's not what I'm here for.

You all can say what you want. I will not stand down, I will only stand my ground. You all can't understand the truth, so let me say it right now. You all suck fucking ass. So go get help. I won't be your therapy. And I won't be tearing down my walls for you anymore.