Foolish Love (sashanne)

Struggling with the Past

Author notes
I haven't had ideas and so it took me a while to write this sorry!

I woke up, my eyes hurt and I rubbed them. I looked over at Anne who was still sleeping and yawned. She looked adorable and was curled up in a ball. I smiled at her then grabbed my phone. I was scrolling through tiktok then got a notification from a number I didn't know, I clicked on it and there was a video. I hesitated before opening it, why was I doing this? What if it like gets my credit card information?? Bit it was too late it started playing. I was taken on a shaky phone obviously and- it was my old high school? The camera pointed at me and it seemed the person holding the phone was hiding. Then she realized when this was, this was a little while after Amphibia, Marcy was gone and it was just her and Anne, one day Anne kept pestering her and she snapped. She screamed at Anne and this was a video recording of the fight. I quickly closed the video and angrily typed "who is this?" and rubbed my eyes again. I looked over at Anne who as peacefully sleeping and got a pang of guilt. I don't deserve her, I still did those things, even if they were a long long time ago. I got up and went downstairs, careful not to wake Anne. I sat down on the couch while bobbing my leg up and down. I can't just leave, that would make Anne upset but I'm obviously over-doing my stay. I heard a noise and it shocked me, my breathing started to shake and I was looking around the room cautiously. "Pace your breathing Sasha" I said to myself, I heard another noise and looked around again, my leg bouncing faster. "I've should leave, she doesn't need me here..." I stood up and walked towards the door, quietly opening it so it didn't make too much noise. I got in my car and just sat in there, thinking about all the awful things I did to Anne. Eventually I heard Anne's door open and tried to pull myself together, it still looked like I was crying, because I was. Anne saw me in the car and I looked away still trying to make it look like I was fine. She crawled into the passenger seat next to me and I glanced at her with my head slightly down. I was fiddling with my fingers and looked down as she settled in the seat. In the corner of my eye I saw her look at me concerned, "Sasha..." she paused not knowing what to say. "Sasha, I know something is wrong, what is it?" I looked up at her and she held out her hand, I hesitantly grabbed it. "You can talk to me Sasha, I promise" she squeezed my hand and was gazing into my eyes anxiously. My eyes darted away "Anne-" it felt like there was something in my throat, I'm not used to talking to people that affect my life about my feelings, it's different if they are a counselor or therapist because they don't affect your life much, but telling your friends, family,

Girlfriend...

It's much harder and more difficult to talk to them. I realized that I was spacing out and Anne seemed very concerned. I scratched the back of my neck "I- uhm-" I realized how hard I was sqeezing Anne's hand and slightly let go. She rubbed my hand with her thumb "someone sent me... a uhm- video earlier this morning and-" I looked up at her and she gave me a distressed smile. "It was-" I gulped, swallowing spit. "A video of a fight we had in high school... a little while after we left Amphibia..." at this point I was looking behind me almost, I glanced back over at Anne and she had a disturbed look on her face. "Anne..?" She was clenching my hands hard "can- can I see it?" I stopped for a second before handing her the phone with the text open. It looked like she clicked on the video and was watching it, she slowly got a more upset look on her face. My eyes were darting back and forth, god she's gonna hate me after this. I blurted out "I understand if your upset with me, I understand if you don't forgive me for what I've done..." Anne looked up at me apprehensively. She looked almost terrified, then wrapped her arms around me in a hug "Sasha, I forgive you, I've forgiven you a long long time ago" she released me from the hug, her hands still on my shoulders. "I couldn't ever really stay mad at you Sash, I was the most mad in Amphibia, but-" she took a deep breath "I love you Sasha and care about you so much" I couldn't hold back the tears any longer and just started sobbing. Anne pulled me into another hug and I cried, burying my face into her shoulder and neck. She was holding onto me but she seemed... angry...? I backed off of her shoulder and she had an outraged look on her face, when she saw I was staring at her it disappeared and she smiled at me. She put her hand on my cheek and wiped the tears off my face. Eventually we left the car and went back inside. She was holding my hand the entire time, and dragged me back upstairs. "Anne what are you-?" She sat on the bed and pulled my hand, making me tumble onto it. "AAH!" I fell forward on top of her, I caught myself before falling directly on her. Our faces were extremely close to eachother and I blushed. I sat up then moved to the side realizing I was sitting on top of her. "What are you nervous Sasha?" She basically tackled me causing me to be laying down. I tried to stop blushing but my face was extremely red "no..." I tried to think of something to get her to think I was nervous "Are you Boonchuy?" She seemed slightly shocked I added more then leaned in closer, I could kiss her then our noses were almost touching and I could feel her breathing on me. She realized how close we were and was blushing too. She took a deep breath

Yay cliffhanger hooray!