A Teenage Girl's Life

The beginning and The End

Hi, I'm Leah and this is my story, now this story is just the beginning after all I'm only 17.

There comes a time in a girl's life where she becomes what people want her to, well that was me in 6th grade. I started dressing how people wanted to. I just wasn't myself. In 7th grade, I met this guy on the bus his name was Noah.S. I fell in love with him and for 6 months I was happy.

Then I had a scare and it scared him. We broke up and I changed, I started being who I wanted to be not who others wanted. I'm happy with who I am. After Noah.S. I met Michael at my ex-best friend's birthday party, and he saved me.

Well, I fell in love with him too, but I wasn't enough for him. I started getting depressed, and not eating. I cut for the first time and I thought it was taking my pain away but it wasn't. It just felt that way because I didn't wanna feel it. My mom saw the cuts one day and she didn't yell or scream at me.

She gave me what I wanted to feel love. I got help and I stopped at that point in my life I was 14, and I was struggling mentally. Well at 15 I moved to Joplin and went back to cheer, at this point my parents were separated. I felt like a burden because I made my dad feel terrible. I visited him when I could in lee summit.

Eventually, my mom and dad fixed everything and we moved to his place with him. I hated it Oreo my cat passed and I didn't feel happy. I just felt numb, I didn't feel anything and Michael came back into my life saying he loved me and I believed him. Then he disappeared for a year. That time I left him I didn't wanna be a side peice. I want actually, mind-numbing and forever love.

Back in Galena, I met this guy before I was with Noah.S. I called him Nik from day one he was my best friend to this day he still is. He helped me through everything. Jaya my other best friend knew her since 4th grade she lives far away now but we still talk. James, he was my forever but I lost him because of my mental issues and all that. I'll probably never have that forever again but I hope one day ill get a forever again.

Last year on July 9th my best friend let's just say T. He passed from drowning and I went back to cutting because I was depressed. My mom and Dad noticed and asked my aunt C and uncle P for help. Aunt C helped me get to where I needed in life so I went to the mental hospital and I got better.

I have my aunt C to think about because I probably wouldn't be here unless she helped me.

No one will probably read this but those that do. you are loved ok if you strugging someone out there wants to help someone out there won't judge you for being you Self harm is never the answer no matter how it makes you feel