I'll always want you!

~*Chapter 1: Niall*~

AN: I know Niall's not from Dublin but I wanted him to still live in Ireland and he that was the best I could do.🇨🇮

*Two Years Later*

Two days before I was set to graduate, here I stood against my locker in a state of shock. People were walking by and going to class, not knowing the hell I was going through. Or at least not caring.

Memories of what my mother said to me when I was seven had come back to me right at that moment.

My whole body started to shake.

Why? I wanted to scream out as loud as I could. Why?

Maybe my mother was right, no man would ever want me or would ever truly love me. I needed to just give up on men for good.

I just wanted Greg, when would he get here? I had to tell him what happened or he'll know something's wrong the moment he sees my teary red eyes. Greg will know what to do to take away the pain before I have to go home to mother. I can never let her know what happened. She'll never let me forget this, just like she always brings up Landon. Gosh, I was having a trouble getting air in my lungs. I just needed Greg.

Greg's my older brother by three years. He's been the only person in my life to be there for me. He goes to the university of Dublin and studying Architecture Engineering. He worked his arse off in school to get perfect grades and of course he kicked arse playing footie. He received a scholarship to play football at the University of Dublin. He could have gone anywhere, but he stayed in Dublin to help take care my mother and me.

He wouldn't leave me all alone to deal with her. He's all I have in this world. Well him and my best friend Harry, but Greg is my brother and we're really close so theirs things I can tell him that I can't talk to Harry about.

My father left when I was three. He came back to see us only once after he left. It was right after Greg got his scholarship to the university. He showed up on our doorstep acting like a proud father. I thought Greg was gonna beat the shit out of him. He only stayed long enough to give Greg and I part of an inheritance from a grandmother neither of us remembered. He also caused our mother to go into another drunken fest and loose another job.

Greg made me put the money away for college and he bought his truck and paid off what was owed on our mother's house. My mother is nothing but a drunk who half the time doesn't even knows she has two kids. I'm nothing but a reminder of the man who left her alone and unwanted. She told me how much I looked like him when I was younger. Her hatred for him drives her problems, or at  least she attempts to drink them away.

Greg is another reminder of our father but my mother pretty much just ignores him more than she does me. As long as he puts money in her account each month for her alcohol she's happy.Greg's worked since he was fourteen to help keep food on our table. I stopped counting how many jobs  she'd had. Sometimes she'd be gone for days at a time, which was fine by us. How Greg managed to work, study and get to football practice all while taking care of his little brother is beyond me.

I love my brother so much for all that he does, even for our mum. Greg is the only person in my life who has been there for me.

I only needed two people in my life... Greg and Zayn. Well shit... at least up until thirty minutes ago, I thought the only two people I needed in my life were Greg and Zayn.  Zayn has been my boyfriend for the last eight months, pretty much all of my senior year has been spent with him... what fooking waste.

I guess I should say he was my boyfriend. The fooker! My body started to shake again as the image came back into my mind. I felt the tears threaten to come again. No! I wasn't going to cry over him anymore.