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My heart and mind feel empty and i don't know if it's because i miss the feeling of loving someone or i want someone to care about me. I hate the fact that i miss that feeling, but i don't want to attach myself to anyone to feel that again. As soon as i even feel the possibility of developing feelings for someone i distance myself from that person as much as possible. I wish it would stop. I want to let myself get close to people again but it's like i'm afraid of my own heart. I need to relearn to let people in. Either that or the pain will just continue.