NKOSENYE

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NKOSENYE

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LORA

I'm at work, being a receptionist is really not that much but at least I'm earning an income. The days are moving slow, I just wish it was the launch already. I'll also get to see my dress, Nkosenye says it's a suprise... Me and Nkosenye sort of just happened, I'm the one who pushed for things to happen. He was scared and didn't want to get into any relationship and I get where he is coming from. But I told him to just relax and we'll go with the flow. I see a future with him, he is everything a woman need. He has a stable job, about to open his company and he knows how to show affection. And his sex game is sooo good, it's like he went to school for it. It's just the anal sex that bothers me, not that I mind but it's something I never did or thought I'd ever do. That's what I love him, he introduces me to new things. I was so happy when he asked me to be his partner on the day of the launch. I will not break his heart like his exes, I will give him the love he deserves. I won't be the reason he is heartbroken again, no I will be the woman he has always dreamt of. He deserves that much.

A colleague of mine stands over the desk I'm working from and her cologne hit my nostrils. I put a hand over my mouth feeling like vomiting. I looked at her and she looked offended.
Lora: I'm sorry, I don't know what's wrong. Your cologne smells funny today...
She looks at me and smiles.. What?
"Ohhhhh"
She says that ohhhh dragging it.
She leans over to me and I couldn't control my actions. I just ran to the bathroom and knelt on the toilet seat, vomiting..
She followed me and brushed my back. I stood up and rinsed my mouth.
Lora: I'm sorry, I don't know what's happening with me.
"You are pregnant!"
Lora:What!?
"Oh come on Lora. The vomiting, and my cologne smelling funny to you. When was the last time you went on your periods?"
I try to think but I really don't remember.
Lora:I don't remember but I'm not pregnant. I'm sure it's just a stomach bug or something.
A child is really not part of my plans.
"I will be back"
She left and came back minutes later carrying a plastic. She took out two pregnancy tests.
"Here, let's do the test to confirm"
Lora: Where did you get them so fast?
"In my office. Me and my husband are trying for a baby, so I test almost everyday".
I nodded and she told me what to do. Now we are waiting for the results.
She picked the both of them and looked at them as she smiled.
Lora:What does it say?
"Oh my god! You are pregnant!"
She jumped to me excited. I just became numb. What if Nkosenye doesn't accept this child? It's too early for me to be pregnant. I can't allow this.
Lora:I want to do an abortion.
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SMANGA

I don't know what's wrong with me. Everytime when I look at Simphiwe, a picture of Mpendulo flashes on my mind and I develop this hate I don't know where it comes from. I just wish I can just stuff him down with a pillow, especially when he is crying. His cries are annoying to my ears. Even now he is crying, Nqobile and mom went out. I don't know what to do so I just look at him. He continues crying and I just wish I can toss him around the room. I pick him up and he stops crying immediately. I sigh placing him back on the bed but he cries again. Oh lord! I just lost it and tossed him roughly on the bed and he burst out crying so loud. I just took my car keys and went to my car scratching my head. I drove away....
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NKOSENYE
Asemahle:So daddy will we come to the lunch?
I laughed at her.
Nkosenye: It's launch Ase not lunch.
Both her and Lindo giggled.
Lindo:Lonchhhh
Nkosenye:Hay you are pronouncing another thing ke wena.
Lindo:Pro...n...pro....
Ase laughed at him and I joined her. He was trying to say "pronouncing".
Lindo:Kncono ngoba Nami ngonyaka ozayo ngiya eskoleni( It's better because I'm also going to school next year).
Asemahle: You will love it. I have friends now. I am the smartest in class.
Nkosenye: Really?
Asemahle:Yes daddy. The teacher always say that and give me stars on my homework.
Nkosenye: That's good work my girl.
Lindo:So daddy... Siyaya kwi lonchhh( Are we going to the launch?)
Nkosenye:No.
Asemahle:Why?
Nkosenye: Children are not allowed, but there will be a live stream.
Asemahle: What's a live stream?
Nkosenye: You will be watching me on your tablets. I will ask MaNzuza to help you, so you can see everything.
Asemahle:Whuuu I will tell my friends that my daddy has a company....
I laughed at her and spent some more time with them until they fell asleep. I tucked them in and kissed them goodnight.
I switched off the lights on their room and went to my room. I looked at my phone and I had a missed call from Lora. I smiled calling her back.
Lora:Babe, why weren't you answering?
Nkosenye: I'm sorry, I was tucking in the kids. What's up?
Lora:I have something to tell you. I don't know how you are going to react to it.
Nkosenye:Okay what is that?
I was starting to get nervous thinking she is breaking up with me. She can't do that to me!
Lora:I can't say it over the phone.
Nkosenye:Why don't you come over then?
Lora:Are you sure?
Nkosenye:Yes, I will send you the address..
Lora:Okay I'm coming....
I hung up and quickly sent her the location..... After an hour she was here. I opened up for her and she ran to my arms. We got inside and went to my bedroom..
Nkosenye: Okay what's going on babe? You don't look okay.
Lora:I need to tell you something.
Nkosenye:Are you breaking up with me?
Lora:No no no. It's not about that.... I have no easy way to say this.... But I'm pregnant... Please know I am not trying to trap you with a baby or something like that. I didn't plan this, I can do an abortion if you don't want anything to do with it.
I hugged her and kept quiet for a while.
Lora: Please say something.
Nkosenye:Are you okay now?
Lora:Yes.
I wiped her tears and made her face me.
Nkosenye: I know you are not trapping me babe. You are not the one who made yourself pregnant, we both made that baby and I'm not going to run away from my responsibilities. We are going to raise him/her the both of us. I love you Lora.
She sighed relieved.
Lora:I was so scared, I thought you would say you don't want anything to do with me anymore.
Nkosenye:I would never do that. I'm not that type of guy.
Lora:I know, I'm sorry.
Nkosenye: It's okay. Do you need anything to eat?
Lora:I do actually. I haven't eaten the whole day because of stress.
Nkosenye:You are starving my child Lora.
She giggled and we stood up walking to the kitchen. I warmed up the food we had for dinner and fed her.
Lora: You don't need to feed me.
Nkosenye:I want to, now open your mouth.
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SONTO
Me and Ranger moved back to Durban, he was the one who suggested it and I agreed because I still want to fix things with Nkosenye so that he can let me see the kids.  But I doubt that will happen anytime soon, he was so angry and hurt that day I met him at the stores. My pregnancy is starting to show, I am four months pregnant so it's not that big yet; I guess my baby likes to hide. Because when I discovered I was pregnant, the doctor said I was already three months pregnant. 

I am not working, Ranger said it's not safe for me to work while pregnant. He said I should relax and enjoy our pregnancy, he will take care of us. And he is doing exactly that, although sometimes I fear that he will cheat again but he hasn't been doing anything as of yet. Or he is really good at hiding it.

We are living at my old house while the new one is being built. I wanted us to buy a house but he refused, he said he'd rather build it. There was no changing his mind.

Anyway, I have a visitor today. My old colleague who is also a friend. She is from one of those wealthy families. She said she is on her way. I hear a hoot from outside and I assume it's her. I drag myself up from the couch and go outside. She was standing next to her car, looking so flipping hot! She came to me and gave me a hug. I pulled her inside and brought her something to drink.
Sonto: I thought you were kidding when you said you wanted to come over.
She laughed sipping the juice.
Lihle:I don't play with serious things. So how are you Sonto?
Sonto:I am fine.
Lihle:Where is your husband?
Sonto: He went out. I don't know where he is really.
Lihle:Mhhhh.
She continued sipping on her juice.
Sonto:So how is work?
Lihle:Oh you know, just the usual. Being CEO is tough on some days but at least I get to do what I like.
Must be nice, imagine her father just handed over the company to her.
I only knew the old CEO, who has retired.
Well this was so awkward, she kept on looking around. And our conversation isn't flowing. I heard a car pulling up outside and I sighed knowing it was Ranger. At least he is back, now she can leave. Because I can see that her eyes are wandering everywhere. My man entered the room holding his keys and phone on his hands. His eyes fell on Lihle and he stood still for a while until he moved over to me and gave me a kiss, and I mean a deep kiss. I tried to pull out but he just held me tighter. I moaned in between the kiss feeling hot. Lihle cleared her throat and I pulled out embarrassed. Ranger sat down next to me.
Sonto: Sorry.  Babe, This is my friend, Lihle. Lihle, this is Ranger my husband.
Lihle fixed her blouse showing off her cleavage and held out her hand for a handshake.
Lihle:Nice to finally know you Ranger.
Ranger looked at her hand and didn't shake it back. I pinched him on the thigh and he winced a little, he shook her hand and Lihle smiled. What the hell is going on with these two!?
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To be continued...