I wish I didn't know how to bring myself so close to death.
Teeter right on the edge,
But never falter through.
I balance on a tightrope I crafted with
just enough calories to keep myself up,
just enough protein to keep my hair from falling out,
just enough iron to keep the bruising down,
Just enough water to keep my stomach quiet,
Just honest enough to keep the questions away..
I know it's wrong.
I spent hours researching.
I've seen the effects firsthand.
Seen it go wrong enough to know better.
Seen it go wrong enough to know how to do better.
Unfortunately so long as it keeps working,
I can't stop.
A/N*if you or someone you know is struggling with an eating disorder please know there is help out there. You deserve to eat. You deserve to take up space*
