Love Out Loud

Confused But Aroused(+18)

Derek kept turning and tossing about on his bed,he sat up and looked at the bedside clock it was right in the night,he lays back and closes his eyes,why was getting sleep so hard tonight?he questioned himself and grunted as the memory of him kissing Eric came across his brain,he sat up again and cursed

"fuck it,why is it so hard to forget?it was just a kiss,the same with that of uncle Ian and those guys who abused me in prison"he shut his eyes again"but why don't I remember it with disgust like the others?"he touched his lips,he punched the pillow and screamed into it"I am not gay,I am not gay,I am not gay"he jumped on his feet and paced the room,it was getting uncomfortably hot plus thinking about the kiss had given him a big boner,he checked the time again it was past Ten"what!what the hell am I still doing awake by this time?"he looked at his tight crotch resisting the urge to lay back on the bed and touch himself,he shook his head and headed to the kitchen to get a glass of water and perhaps cool off at the balcony,he got his water but as he turned he collided with something strong"shit"he screamed out of fear before frowning in anger"Don't ever sneak on me like that again in your life,fuck"

His hands were shaking so he placed the cup on the counter to avoid shattering it,he heaved a sigh before pulling his wet shirt over his head,he caught Eric looking at him and scowled "what are you looking at?"Eric shook his head"you're cute and very sexy nothing else"Derek moved backwards startled but controlled himself"say that again and I am going to hit your head on the wall"he turned away from Eric wringing his shirt in the sink,he jumped sharply when cold fingers traced his spine,his breathe caught in his throat when soft but hot lips placed kisses on his neck, refusing the urge to moan he pushed Eric off"are you trying to dig your grave because believe me out of a thousand reasons this is one that could make me kill you"Eric smirked then approached him"really?I don't mind, you're so beautiful Derek"Derek became scared with the look on his face"hey stay away from me,I don't want to hurt you"and with that he hurriedly left the kitchen the mission to drink water quickly forgotten,he entered his room and closed the door,he flung himself facedown on the bed but as the fabric grazed his dick it became sensitive so he stood up,it wasn't working"why am I attracted to him?"he paced few steps again before given up and snatching his laptop, frantically he went on Google and typed "why am I attracted to a boy like myself"he got lots of response but it didn't help relieve his mind from thinking naughty so he searched up porn,he was going to take care of himself and go to bed,the ache in his groin was too much he could not ignore it anymore,few videos popped up and he clicked on it, reducing the volume so only him could hear,the first he clicked on was a female teacher and a student boy,he watched but got disgusted along the way so he changed,he continued clicking and clicking but the videos were not satisfying,he shut his laptop in guilt as the door to his room suddenly opened, Eric stood at the door smiling while looking down at Derek, Derek trailed his eyes and saw his dick was out in the open, throbbing and pulsing,so embarrassed he pulled the covers over himself

"Don't you know how to knock?you can not just barge in here just because this is your house,there is something called privacy you know?"he yelled in anger just to cover his embarrassment of being caught red-handed in the act"sorry,you were too busy you didn't hear me knock,I knock few times,very loud too"he looked down at him again"guess you were trying to climb down a mountain you didn't notice"Derek's face was flaming red"get out of here,now"but Eric did the opposite,he dragged himself into the room, shut the door and the next thing that had Derek jumping was the sound of the lock clicking"hey what are you doing?I told you to leave"he approached him gently like a predator stalking it's prey"I will leave but not now"he climbed into the bed and snatched Derek's laptop"hey give that back"-"tsk tsk,calm down,we are both adults I know you were watching porn,you don't have to lie about it,no need to hide or be embarrassed about it"-"shut the fuck up"Eric nodded clearly enjoying Derek's discomfort"hmm nice selection but why not watch something new"what!is he crazy?"what do you think you're doing?"he questioned as Eric started typing on the laptop"searching for a better video to watch"horror settled on his face as he made a grab for his laptop"are you crazy,I can not and will not watch this kind of videos with you,get out of my space,it might be your house but for now this is my space"Eric cocked his head and laughed"keep talking and I'll kiss those beautiful lips of yours"Derek shut his mouth immediately"good"-"this is absurd,I am not watching porn wi..."before he could get his words out the sound of a moaning man filled the room and Derek clamped his mouth shut as he looked at Eric in panic"you're looking at me like that again,do you want to get eaten?"before Derek could register what he meant he was already underneath Eric

"Were you thinking about me when you decided to watch this videos?"it took Derek a while to answer so Eric assumed the answer was yes"you could have told me baby"Derek kicked him off"stop dreaming I wasn't thinking about you"he stood up and pulled his pants into place, Eric caught him as he tried to escape the room,he pulled him to his chest Even though he struggled,he forced a kiss on him"I am not forcing you or hurting you but let's play a game if you know you're really matured and a man"that did it, because it caught Derek's attention and he kind of relaxed"what do you mean?"-"come up here,let's test your strength,if after a few videos with me you're still not needy I swear I'll never disturb you again and you're free to your opinions about you being gay or not"Derek was not sure but he wanted to also know if he was gay or not"and what happens if I get needy?"-"ahh leave that for the maybes"so Derek moved back to the bed and tried to relax, Eric sat beside him leaving some gap between them and clicked on a gay porn, Derek's heart skipped a beat but he acted normal and watched,it was going normal until the top boy inserted a finger into the bottoms hole,a gasp escaped Derek,as the boy in the video rotated his finger inside the other boy and added another finger, Derek involuntarily grasped the covers, Eric took notice of all the actions but pretended he didn't see anything,the boy who had his hole fingered was moaning so loud and the expression on his face made a silent moan drop from Derek's mouth,he bit his lips as he tried to suppress it,Eric looked at how Derek's fingers tightened around the sheet and moved closer to Derek closing the gap between them a slid a hand under the sheets, Derek didn't notice him until his fingers traced along his pants, Derek froze immediately"what are you doing?"Eric licked his lips before placing a finger on his lips"shhhh don't say a word,just feel ok,I won't hurt you,I promise"he knew it was wrong but he could not tell him to stop,his fingers grazed his hard dick and it became more stiff making Derek to whimper before closing his eyes, Eric's fingers tightened around him as he began to stroke Derek's dick,he bit his lips at the Expression of pure Bliss on Derek's face, unable to hold himself back he pulled the sheets away and straddled him,he lowered his head and took his lips in a hot but passionate kiss,he moaned as his tongue played tag with Derek's own,he lifted his head and pulled his shirt away before returning to kiss Derek"god I want you so bad,so bad it hurts"a look of panic crossed Derek's face when he saw Eric pull his pants off, Eric saw this and quickly kissed his forehead"trust me,I will not hurt,never hurt you please"after he pulled Derek's pants down making his hardened member spring forward hitting Eric in the face,Eric smiled and before Derek could guess what was happening swallowed his cock into his mouth,the protest died in his mouth as he moaned aloud,Eric's head was bobbling up and down Derek's cock and he smiled when Derek fisted his fingers in his hair and called his name out quietly,this made him increase his pace as he palmed his own erection in his hands and stroked,

Derek's breathe was coming out in short gasps,he was not controlling his loud moans and Eric didn't tell him to stop because the way he kept moaning his name was driving him to the edge, Derek's fingers shook as he tried to whisper some words"I.. I'm going to...fuck"he could not make a sentence so he tried pushing Eric off to give him the signal but he was having none of it as he didn't bulge,he sucked faster and faster as he felt Derek approach climax,he stroke himself faster too wanting to cum at the same time with him, Derek's fingers tightened on his hair as he gave a loud groan before convulsing,his shaft quivering in Eric's mouth as he came so hard Eric pumped himself faster and shut his eyes as his own release hit him, Derek was shocked and muttered quickly"spit it out"Eric smirked before swallowing his cum and licking the traces from his lips"Sweet,spitters are quitters and I never quit"he smiled as he gave Derek a very deep kiss, Derek was breathing so hard and he was weak,never had he had an orgasm so strong like this before,he responded to Eric's kiss with a hazy mind,he began to shut his eyes so Eric pulled him into a spoon position and cuddled him from behind,he shut his eyes and went to sleep as he shut the laptop ending the fun of the guys in the video,he smiled as he held Derek in his arms and kissed his shoulders as his own sleep found him