𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄

𝟎𝟔| 𝐄𝐗𝐇𝐀𝐔𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐃

𝐍𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐌𝐁𝐄𝐑 𝟏𝟐𝐓𝐇, 𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐀𝐘

𝐈 𝐇𝐀𝐃 finished putting the laundry in the drying machine. I stretched after I got up and headed for the kitchen. I looked outside at the tree and watched as the leaves blew in the wind. The sun was shining, the birds were chirping and the butterflies, flying around.

I opened the window to get some fresh air as I turned on the radio. The kitchen was my safe space as it was peaceful and quiet.

I was planning to make soup so I grabbed all the ingredients and utensils. I placed the cutting board on the counter as the water in the pot boiled.

As I cut the tomatoes, I heard Lorenzo upstairs stomping around. I hated when he did this. It didn't mean anything good. I was probably going to be yelled at.

I continued cooking, making sure to season and mix the ingredients around before putting everything into the pot.

I put all the plates and utensils I had used in the sink. I cleaned the counter before going back to the sink and washing the plates. As I got to my last plate Lorenzo began coming down the stairs.

"Geneviève, what the fuck is this?" I turned around to see Lorenzo holding a laundry basket which was full. I forgot to fold them last night.

"Oh, I forgot. I'll do it now." I admitted but this was not good enough for him.

"No, this is the fourth thing you've forgotten today. You know, I'm sick of these excuses. First you got up late and now you can't even remember to do the basic things."

He then began going on a tangent about all the mistakes I had made throughout the day.

"I mean, are you kidding me!" Lorenzo shouted as I looked back at him, clenching the sponge in my hand.

"If I can't do anything right why didn't you just kill me when you got me?" I asked as I bit the inside of my cheek. He always had to ruin everything for me.

"Don't ask me that question. I didn't know you would be so useless." I looked back at the sink which the knife I was previously using was sitting in. I looked away from it as I tried to ignore the thoughts I was thinking.

"You're so useless!" He shouted, that's when I grabbed the knife and slit my wrist.  He wouldn't care and I didn't care at the moment so I could finally die in peace.

I held the counter as I watched the blood fall into the sink. Lorenzo was still yelling at me but it was slowly fading out as I was starting to lose consciousness. I looked down at the blood as my vision started to get blurry.

"Here's a favor then." I mumbled as I stumbled back. Then I met the ground. Hard.

I was sitting in a field, leaning on a tree. I felt the wind blow past me as I watched the kids in the park running around. I watched a couple sent off their daughter into the playground and she greeted her friends before they made their way over to the slides.

I took a deep breath in and closed my eyes before hearing footsteps. I opened my eyes to see Lorenzo make his way over. He was carrying a basket and that's when I realized we were having a picnic. He set the basket on a bright pink sheet and leaned over.

"Hey." He greeted as he kissed me on the forehead. I smiled as he began taking out the food, placing them on the sheet. I fixed the plates and utensils as he finished taking out the rest of the stuff. We were talking but I don't know what we were taking about.

I didn't understand why I couldn't hear us talking. Our mouths were moving but I didn't know what I was saying. But I didn't care. We ate the food, continuing our conversation before deciding to walk over to the ice cream truck.

As I walked beside him, he picked me up and put me on his back. We laughed before reaching the ice cream truck.

"Two strawberry shortcakes." Lorenzo ordered and the man smiled before going to the back.Just as he handed it to me I fell.

Then I was in my room. It was a dream. No wonder it was so peaceful. I laid back down, my head was pounding and my wrist still hurt. I looked over to see Lorenzo sitting beside me. I didn't say anything as I looked down at my wrist. He had bandaged it up and we were both now watching tv in my room.

"I'm sorry." He apologized but I didn't reply. I was upset. I was upset it didn't work.