All For Me

twenty-six

scarlet pov 

"we really doing this right now?" i asked aiden with a grin as she stood by me 

aiden came up with the great idea of us walking out in our bra and tight boxers. you know, to come out to charlotte as intersex 

she breathed out a nervous sigh and nodded

"hopefully she'll be accepting?" she said nervously 

i understand her nervousness. in highschool aiden didnt have good reactions to her having an extra appendage

she actually was bullied. she already didnt have people at home for her, just for her to go to school and be considered the quiet, nerdy, "weirdo"

she got bullied a lot. boys tried to snatch down her pants to expose her. girls would often sexually assault her then tell their boyfriends she came onto them when she turned them down, thus making her get another beating 

so all in all, i wasnt surprised she was nervous 

i didnt have that problem in highschool. i was actually a "player". i went from bed to bed like santa jumping from house to house 

i actually didnt get into a serious relationship until i was 23

"hey, its gonna be fine" i said assuringly  

she shot me a shy smile before pulling the door open 

"hel-" charlotte stopped mid yell and turned to look at us, her eyes widening 

she trailed her eyes down our bodies and if its possible her eyes got wider

i felt aiden trying to grab my hand since charlotte was staring at our covered penis's. i took ahold of her hand and squeezed it 

"w-whats that?" charlotte asked, her voice wavering 

"well.." i pursed my lips. "me and aiden are intersex meaning we have a penis but boobs. we arent transgender, just born this way" i explained 

charlotte looked up for a second before looking back down then back up

"i want to go home."

aiden pov 

i swear my heart may have stopped beating at hearing charlotte utter those words 

"wh-what" i stuttered and cleared my throat 

her face went blank, i couldnt tell what she was thinking and thats what scared me most 

fuck, she's disgusted

i shouldnt have done this. stupid. stupid is what i am 

i looked at scarlet for help and she was just as speechless and surprised as i was 

"please take me home" she said again emotionlessly, glanced down once more before walking off 

tears pricked at my eyes and i blinked harshly

"well you heard the girl. take her home" i said harshly and dropped scarlet's hand 

"ai-"

"no, fuck it. God i am stupid" i sighed and rubbed my face. "fucking hate my life" i stormed off to our bedroom and slammed the door behind me 

i hadnt been rejected and bullied since highschool ended and seeing charlotte's reaction made old wounds turn back fresh. 

scarlet's pov

sitting in the car was awkward

i always imaged that if i was ever alone with her i'd tease her until she turned into a blushing mess. just to satisfy myself at seeing her so shy 

but no. this wasnt that. it was awkward, very silent the only thing making a sound was the radio that was very low 

i wasnt mad at charlotte. i couldnt blame her. she didnt know about intersex people as it seem and her reacting that way was valid

she wasnt in the wrong. she didnt even show a emotion so who knows how she really feels? all we can do is assume 

and for the people in the back who says 'she didnt have to react like that though, she's doing to much' how else do you expect her to react? show a smile? she was shocked. drop to her knee's? i wouldnt mind that. immediatly accept us? yes, she couldve did that but she's just finding out about intersex. she deserves time to process it all

"im sorry" i heard a whisper so low i almost didnt catch it 

my head snapped towards charlotte im surprised i didnt get a whiplash. i stared at her for a second before looking back to the road

i cleared my throat. "for what?"