Opposite Attracts. Zeijan Verajera.

Prologue.

He is all things calm and foreseeable. She is all sorts of wild and unpredictable. How do they bear one another? In her raging storms of madness, he is the rock solid anchor she needs. In his systematic way of life, she is the right amount of adventure he seeks.

We are the exact opposite of eachother. I love spicy foods while he love salty or sweet foods. I love the rain, he loves the sun. I love the moon and the dark while he loves the sun and light. He likes reading while I can't even read one paragraph without being irritated. He's a honor student while I can't even enter top 20.

Zeijan is handsome, kind and sweet. Everyone would love to hangout with him. Hindi sya mahirap mahalin. He is really comfortable to be with. He have his family who supports him. I don't even know why he wanted to be with me when I'm literally not his standard. I'm just myself. People only hang out with me because of my friends or because of my face.

Everyone hates me. Hindi naman nila tinago yun kasi harap harapan kong naririnig. Mabuti na lang at andyan ang mga kaibigan ko. They always have my back. They gave me strength and hope.

Zeijan. He was everything.. he is everything I could ask for. Tinuruan nya akong magmahal. Tinuruan nya akong mangarap at maging kontento sa kung anong meron ako. Tinuruan nya akong ipagtanggol ang sarili ko, tinuruan nya akong huwag intindihin ang sinasabi ng iba dahil alam ko na hindi ito totoo.

Tinuruan nya ako ng maraming bagay na nakatulong sa buhay ko. Half of my life I was alone. I have no family that I can call mine because both of them have their new family, hindi naman nila ako iniwan pero mahirap kasi kada linggo ako lilipat ng bahay. Binibigyan ako ng pera ng kailangan ko pero wala akong natanggap na pagmamahal mula sakanila simula nung naghiwalay sila.

Love. It scared me. I witnessed how my parents loved eachother to the point that it broke them. They loved eachother but they don't trust eachother. They loved eachother because I was born. I can say that they loved eachother because I saw it in my own eyes, I felt it. But the trust is not there. My mother didn't trust Dad enough kaya nagduda sya, hindi naman mali si Mommy kasi meron naman talagang bago. Maybe she also felt na hindi na ganon dati. Naramdman nya na hindi na sapat.

It happened so fast. They were just happy yesterday, pero hiwalay na ngayon. Love is really something that can make a person feel different types of emotion.

Kahit ayaw pakawalan ni Mom kailangan kasi hindi na sakanya masaya. Kasi hindi na sya yung laman ng puso. Kahit ayaw nya kailangan kasi yun ang ikakasaya ni Dad. She chose to suffer just for my Dad to be happy. They forgot about me when they made that decision. They didn't think about what I would feel. Hindi nila ako naisip.

But its okay. Doon sila masaya. I love them both kaya hinayaan ko sila na kalimutan na mayron pala silang anak na naghihintay sa bahay nila.

And here I am again. Doing the same thing I did before. Infront of the man who taught me a lot of things. Here I am getting myself ready to let him go because that will make him happy. Who am I to stop them from feeling happy, right?

I'm taking my time memorizing his features, his smell, his feeling. Because maybe this will be the last time that we will see eachother.

I smiled sadly. He taught me to love and here I am teaching myself to let him go.

"Will you be okay?" I ask him. Stopping myself from crying.

He looked at me. His eyes is very different. It has no emotions anymore.

"Of course." Right. He will be okay. Sya yun eh. I'm just myself. It doesn't really matter if anyone lose me. I can be replaced easily.

"I'm sorry for stopping you before.. hindi ko naman sinasadya eh.. akala ko kasi masaya ka sakin.. pero oaky na ngayon! Punta ka na sakanya.."  slowly. Tears started escaping my eyes.

"I'm breaking up with you." 5 words. Its just 5 words but it broke me into million pieces.

I just nodded while looking down.

"I l-love you.." I said not looking at him.

"I loved you too, Naomi." Naomi.

Before it sounds beautiful but now I don't think I'll feel the same way. 

He loved me. Atleast he loved me,right?

"Chase your dreams even without m-me, hm?"

He nodded. Looking at me. Hindi ko na alam kung paano ako uusas aa buhay na wala sya.

"I will. Do the same, Naomi." Hindi mo sure.

Hindi sya sure kung kaya ko na hindi sya kasama.

He left our shared condo taking my heart and soul with him. Taking my dreams and hope with him.

Just like that my exact opposite left me to be with his right person.

Him leaving made a huge impact in my life. I stayed in the condo crying for 1 week not doing anything just thinking of him.

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