The Summers After

Chapter 14

 Laurel's POV

Yesterday when John took me inside he kissed me, not just a peck, a total make out session. To be honest I didn't mind. I love him, I always will. I am just afraid of messing it up or our relationship turning out like it did last time.

Today I am going to talk to him about what this means and what he wants.

I woke up at around nine, which is later than I usually do. We stayed up very late last night.

I walked into the kitchen, Belly and Conrad were already eating breakfast.

"Good morning guys" I said yawning

"Good morning Laur" Con replied

"Hi mom" Belly said

I poured myself a cup of coffee and decided to drink it on the beach. When I passed the clearing in our backyard I saw John sitting there in the sand.

"Hey stranger" I said sitting down by him

"He Laur"

"How long are you staying for" I asked

"Probably until the volleyball tournament, if that's okay with you and Susannah" he said nervously

"Of course, stay as long as you like"

"Thanks" he replied

We sat there in silence for a few minutes, and I took a sip of my coffee.

"So, about what happened yesterday."

"What about it?"

I was slightly hurt but I corrected myself, this is how he is and I need to show him that it's not okay.

"Well, I want to know what it means. Why did you kiss me? Do you want to get back together?" I asked quickly

"Laur, I love you, you know I do. But, I don't want to rush into anything, we are doing so well right now", "Maybe it was a mistake" he finished

I felt like I was going to cry, but I wasn't going to give him the satisfaction, "Don't let me get in the way. It was a mistake, you're right, it meant nothing." I said getting up

"Wait! I didn't mean it like that, Laur. I'm sorry!" he said

But it was too late. I was already going back to the house. I opened the sliding door and wanted to go upstairs before anyone saw me cry. I ran into Beck on the way up.

"Goodmorning Laur..." she stopped mid sentence, seeing the tears in my eyes "What happened? Are you okay?"

"I.." before I could finish she was guiding me towards her room. She sat me down on the bed.

"Tell me what happened"

"Yesterday John kissed me. I love him, I really do. So this morning I saw him on the beach and decided to talk to him about what it means. He said he loves me but doesn't want to ruin our relationship again, and then..then h-he said t-that it was a mistake." I said. I couldn't hold it in anymore, I started crying. Throughout our whole divorce I didn't cry, I should've know that this was going to happen, I let myself fall for his stupid games. I always let him control me, that's part of the reason why we ended it in the first place.

She pulled me into a hug and kissed the top of my head, "It's going to be okay" she said calmly. I cried for a little while, I forced myself to stop. "Thanks Beck", she wiped away my tears and said "How about this evening you and I go out. We can get all dressed up and have some drinks or go to a club or a party". " I-I don't know, that doesn't sound like me" I said hesitantly. "It will cheer you up, I promise," she said. "Ok, I will do it. But I am not wearing anything too fancy" I said, making her squeal.