Groaning, i slamed my alarm causing it to slam on the ground, sitting on the bed stretching my stiff body from the beating i had two nights ago , i shook my head and stand up making my bed , then went to my bathroom that was connected to my bedroom .
looking into the mirror , i found over the years that i have never had a bedhead , it is always slightly curly , never straight , never in knots always like that, as if i hadn't had fight with the bed sheets hours ago, i sighed then striped my clothes and started taking my shower but trying to be careful because of the stitches , after finishing i changed into a white crop top with a green sweater on it with baggy jeans , then put my hair in a messy bun and wore my glasses the last
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when i open the lock on my bedroom door and stepped in the living room, i was expecting yelling coming to my way or something to be thrown at me , but i found that the flat is empty and silent , then i remembered that i was two days i finally got rid of my foster parents ,as both of them were abusive , very abusive as i still have the goodbye stitches on my body that they left , and i was very relieved , yes i may be old but i was living with them since forever and no one believed me except my new neighbor as he heard them saying everything cruel and bad you will ever hear in your own life
Even after he helped me, he suggested that we swap apartments as his is only one bedroom while mine with two and as his words it has so many bad memories over the years, so i agreed as it was a very good idea
shaking my head from these bad memories , every single thing said maybe true but i am a very successful person maybe more than both of them combined together, sighing i went to the kitchen to get a granola bar and wore my shoes and went to my job , but not without checking that all of my soul marks are hidden
i arrived at the hospital 10 minutes late, changed into the hospital gear and started my day with my cup of black coffee with honey , i started assisting a lot of patients and done two surgeries , i may be the youngest doctor in this hospital but i am the best
now at the lunch break with my fourth cup of coffee , and it was still 4:23 pm and my shift ends at 6pm , sighing i throw the now empty cup in the bin and went to see the patients who needs help , as i don't have friends and i am not into socializing with people well maybe except for christen but she is working , so yeah fuck lunch break let's do something useful before drowning into my dark thoughts
finally 6pm , after changing into my clothes once more i got out from the hospital , and went to the library to start my second job , what! don't blame me , i am not safe alone with my mind so i had to do something with it , as i had photographic memory which sucked in every possible way.
entering the library i say a quite hi to mr jacob " wait marissa , there will be new books coming today so i need you to take care of them ,as i had to leave " mr jacob is a very nice old guy he owns this library since forever , so he works when i am in hospital , and i work when he is resting at home like half timing , which i don't mind " it is okay mr jacob i will ,have a nice day" smiling at him one last time before he went outside the door
hour after arriving to the library with my six cup of coffee and the seventh book of harry potter , the sound of the small bell above the door ringed signaling that there are costumers or the delivery guy , but for my luck it is both of them
" hey there a delivery backage for jacob wally and ms jones " the delivery guy reading from the papers " yes i am miss jones you can put it here near the desk " gesturing to where he can put it " okay , can you please sign here , thank you , oh and say hi to mr jacob for me " he saluted which i saluted back " don't worry i will" while reading the big ass list mr jacob had done for the books he wanted to be put in the library
sighing i lifted the heavy ass box and put it on the desk realizing that there are three other boxes beside it , huffing very loudly then putting my hair in a messy bun and started working on putting every book in its section after finding that mr jacob brought every type cooking, fantasy, science, textbooks, kids books, Disney books, mafia, romantic , mystery and anything that can come to your mind
unaware of the person who was still in the library while putting the books " excuse me , it seems that i can't find the seventh book of harry potter .." and before he can continue i had hitted him with the book inside my hand " oh my god , i am really sorry , i didn't know you are still here " but my proplem is that i can't display emotions so it seemed that i didn't care ,while he was holding his head i heard a laughter coming from the end of the isle
he glared at me but took a deep breath " it is okay , i shouldn't have walked that quite it is my fault too" i just shook my head " i am sorry too , you said harry potter the seventh book the deathly hallows , it is in isle 13 secsion A ,shelf number 4 enjoy your day" he nodded and with that i returned to my current job and after finishing i was surprised to see that no one is here
closing the library and walking to my apartment was very peaceful , but again that is new york you aren't safe at night by any means , so when i arrived at building i sighed in relief , passing by my old apartment i found the new neighbor was going to enter his apartment
" oh hey marissa , how are you today ?" he asked me when he finally picked up the door " hey mr murdock , yeah i am fine " shrugging as i really didn't feel good enough "don't lie to me please " sighing "physically i am healing , but mentally i am not good enough , but i will pass this situation and become better one day" shrugging again "don't worry marissa every thing will be okay very soon, i will see tomorrow bye" waving him then he entered and i went to my apartment
after changing and decided what i am going to eat , i settled on a grilled cheese sandwich and making sure that i deleted my alarm for tomorrow then went to sleep , praying to god that i am not going to have any more nightmares .
And i didn't know that it will be the last night i will be even living here.
