existential crisis: wellness and health

the paths.

To the ones who lost their way after having to or even being let go from someone you've loved. I hope you are led to another beautiful path in life.

I had a dream so vivid where
I could feel my heart palpitating
just at the thought of you.
it was dark, too dark to see
but enough light to cast
upon your face, blessing me
with your divine presence.
you looked serene, angelic, and
I wished I could stop everything
in motion and live out my days unmoving
and unwavering just looking at you

but something bothered you
which had bothered me too.
your eyes so avoidant.
you couldn't bear to look at me
and I couldn't bear the thought.

you urged me to follow behind you,
pulling my hand as I stumbled trying
to keep up with your pace.
we moved in a endless direction
where you ended up taking me to
a place where all paths met.
a place in which there were
so many where we could go,
leave, enter, explore, to which I
believed we would do together.

but yet, we never did.
you stopped and turned to look at me.
your voice so soft, so warm, so sad,
though I couldn't hear past your
muffled voice,
I knew we were no more.

A goodbye.
A farewell.
Our last conversation.
But what I didn't understand was why.

Why are you leaving me?

I dreamt that I begged you to stay with me.
To never leave.
To never be apart.

But in the end
you left me alone.
Alone at the paths.
And it was up to me
To find my way out
Without you.

(Been in my drafts forever because I don't know if my dream makes any sense and I had no clue what advice or dedication to put. But what I'm really trying to say poetically is that you brought me to this point in my life and with your leave, I am now lost. I don't know where else to go if it is not with you.)

(This one means a lot to me)