"Where were you? "
"I was out with a friend "
She answered
"You were out with what kind of friend
till 1 at night love? "
He replied and walked towards her
" I was just out why? "
She answered again with nervousness
He pinned her to the wall and...
.... He left my dad told me once the ones who you thought will never leave you will be the first one who will leave you and i felt that He was everything I had, he is the reason I'm still here, he is the reason my head is still above the water, I'm only 13 years old now what should I do he was my only one, he promised me.
Rafe I miss you Rafe yes rafe my best friend he went back to Italy to finish studying, to be a doctor, he said he will be back but he never did.
I closed my diary and I took a deep breath but I start crying again Memories came back and hit me so harsh, I cant help myself anymore.
( FLASHBACK)
"Rafe please can't you stay" I almost whispered into his arms as he hugs me tight "Amore we both know I can't, you know my dad and I need to do this" Said Rafe "but I can't do this please I can't" I started crying He lifted my chin and wiped the tears when I stare deep into his green eyes "shhhh baby don't cry I promised that I will be back and I will try to contact you"
I knew he won't contact me Because he has daddy issues like me for a minute I was so hopeless, I don't wanna ever learn how to smile without him, I can't let it go its hard for me. Rafe.. My Rafe
(End of FLASHBACK)
I was burying my face into the pillow I wanted to stop my brain from overthinking, from bringing back flashbacks but God I miss him I miss what I had Growing up is painful Being a girl is hurtful Mentally and physically And I'm still trying to accept that And accept that he is gone.
2 weeks later :
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I was opening the boxes of the new books we ordered for the library my phone was buzzing again I wiped my hands by my skirt because they were dusty and I checked my phone it was my mom I answered
"Hey mommy" I said "Ryana come home now it's important" I could feel the shake in her voice and I was worried and scared "mama is everything okay? because you are scaring me ?" "just come home I'm fine" "Okay mama I'm coming bye for now " She ended the call and I was in shock because I'm the one who end the call always and she didn't call me by nicknames that's mean it's serious.
My body started shaking from fear and anxiety, I grabbed my bag and took my pills out then I swallowed them without even water, I excused myself and I told Mr. Christ yes he owns the library and he is in theate of his 50s "Mr.christ I'm sorry for saying this but my mom just called me and she said it's an emergency may I go?" I said and I was trying to calm myself down "honey it's okay I don't mind that go and take your time" "Thank you so much Mr. Christ" I answered and opened the door of the library as quickly as I could and walked down to my house because the library isn't that far away from home so I don't take taxes or the bus to the library.
I stood in front of the garden I saw 2 black G-class, I cleared my mind from my bad thoughts and brought my key out before I can use the key, I noticed the door is already half open and then I entered and said "Mama I'm home is everything alright? " I went to the living room because I know they will be there and maybe we have guests god knows,.. When I went to the living room I saw 4 men who were dressed in black instead one of them, wbich is dressed in a grey suit,his eyes laid on me and he was dirty blonde with dark brown eyes, he was sitting on the couch across my dad and my mom, his legs were wide open he was sitting so comfortably. But something was wrong My mom was crying quietly
"Mio dio I didn't know you have such an attractive daughter Leon Lopez" Wait what did the dirty blonde guy meant He is a friend of my dad or what. "well I told you that you won't regret that Mr.Blake" Finally my dad said his name he is Blake but what he won't regret? He started looking at me from toy to bottom, he laid his eyes on my thighs Which were shown a bit because of my skirt then he stared deep into my hazel eyes, I was so confused I decided to talk "what the actual fuck is happening?"
"well, well, beautiful your dad hasn't tell you yet - The blonde guy named Blake before he could finish his sentence his phone buzzed and he picked up " Che cosa? Non ti ho detto cosa fare, ora è colpa tua"
( translation : What? I didn't tell you what to do now its your fault)
His thick Italian hits me "Va bene sto arrivando" ("Okay I'm on my way")
And he ended the call I understood what he said because I know Italian after Rafe left me I promised I will teach myself Italian and now I'm 21 years old I know Italian but the thing is rafe is not here anymore. "I'm leaving now tell your beautiful girl the story Leon lopez" He stood up and came to me he pressed his fingers against my cheeks "Be ready tomorrow bella ragazza" Then he left with his men they seemed like bodyguards and I looked at my dad and said " care to explain you motherfucker!" He came and slapped me so harsh "you little it who do you think you are to talk to me like that?"
"huh what do u except me to say after what this shitty guy said, to you papa I love you what happened tell me?" "he sold you" I turned my face to look at my mom her eyes was so red from crying and what did she say? "mom what?" Before she could answer my dad replied "like you heard I sold you"
I could feel my heart broke like a glass my body started to shake My hands, my legs too... My tears came down again but this time they were holding more darkness and more heaveness. "stop shaking like a hungry dog" My dad broke me more by this and how could he?
"BUT YOU DID THIS TO ME Dad , YOU PUT ME INTO MENTAL ISSUES, YOU RUINED MY LIFE IN THE NAME OF FATHER, YOU BROKE MY HEART BEFORE Any MAN COULD, I NEVER LIVED MY CHILDHOOD I NEVER LIVED MY TEENAGE LIFE TOO, WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE ALL OF THIS, I WAS HELPING EVERYONE WHEN MY OWN HANDS WERE SHAKING, I WAS TRYING MY BEST TO BE ME AGAIN, MY HEAD WAS A MESS ALWAYS BUT I WAS ALWAYS A GOOD GIRL WHICH U NEVER LOVED" I was screaming and shouting for the first time in my life I let out what I wanted to say for a long time and I broke into tears I fell down because I couldn't stand up. "Ryana- " SHUT UP MOM SHUT UP DON'T YOU DARE TO TALK TO ME AGAIN"
I went to upstairs again i was so broken and mad and again so hopeles.
