youngster

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GRABS YALLS TISSUES NOW IM TELLIN YALL RNN GRAB IT AND LETS GO THIS BOOK ISNT EDITED SO SPELLING MISTAKES ARENT CHECKED.

after my graduation we all went to a buffet too eat . i fed cece and had a great time I was so happy to be spending this time with the love of my life and my kid . I was happy that maddy had a child of her own I love my niece . After we ate we were all talking ashtray paided and I kissed him as a way to say thank you .We were all walking out the door I heard a gun shot fire and got through ashtrays chest. No . No please no we just graduated please . I handed maddy cece and kneeled down to ashtray

ashtray-ma.
y/n-please talk to me I'm right here *I grabbed my phone out and called the cops*
ashtray-ion think..-
y/n-no please ashtray you gotta keep your eyes open.
ashtray-I love you
y/n-KEEP YOUR EYES OPEN PLEASE *I said through sobs my eyes got blurry and I was shedding tears one after the other*
ashtray-listen. Raise cece better then the word better.
y/n-ASH PLEASE!!

The cops and a ambulance got here and they carried him in I was between sobs and couldn't handle it . Graduation good but after ?? Y'all take my boyfriend the father of my daughter? .

*AFTER A FEW HOURS*
doctor-y/n?
y/n-yes ?!? *I got up in a rush*
doctor-im sorry we did everything we would.
y/n-can I at least see him?
doctor-sure *he opened the door and I saw him lying there lifeless but looking beautiful as always*

I couldn't handle it

*2 DAYS AFTER HIS PASSING*

it was now ashtrays funeral and I was getting ready I wasn't allowed to bring cece so she was staying with suze / lexis mom . I brushed my hair and held in tears . I just wanted to wake up from this dream and hug him . I had his name tatted on my chest and the side of my stomach . I had him kiss a piece of paper and I got it tattooed. Like if I was in front he would've been here today. My heart aches

I got up nd looked at myself in the mirror and took a deep breath . I walked downstairs and got in the car maddy bought I was going through my camera roll and smiling at everything that had to do with ash . After a few minutes we got there and I could feel the tears building up I saw fez looking at me and turning around , fezco wasn't the type too cry and he hates when someone sees him crying but it's Wtv it understand

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caption-moments captured before the incident of ashtray O'Neil known as Y/n Perez's boyfriend. People say they saw them walking out of Super Golden Buffet Moments before Ashtray was shot prayers go out too y/n and ashtrays family .

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after I saw that photo I took a screenshot knowing that was the last photo I had with my boyfriend. I wiped my tears and went inside I saw a little box with wings made I started to cry again .

My heart aches so much I wanted to switch places with ashtray so bad my heart wasn't okay I felt helpless. My poor angel he didn't deserve this I promise you who ever did this ain't goin nowhere or far I will find them and do worst to them . I promised ash I'd kill for him and ima keep that promise I walked up to the casket and saw my beautiful boy I reached my hand in and on the side of his hand it said

"my youngster"

youngster was his nickname for me . My heart hurt too much . I rubbed his cheek then leaned down too kiss his nose I wiped my tears I couldn't bring myself up I was weak he was was a good person . Envy is powerful it makes you loose a loved one..

"I love you ma"

END.