love. a strong word.

chapter 11

todays the day we are leaving. the day i get to see karl. the day tommy gets to see sapnap. tommys been talking about meeting sapnap a lot. hes been really excited. he says theyre close friends offline and talk a lot.
we get on the plane and i can feel tommy double tap my hand. i open my hand and i feel it in his. ash is in the seat beside us but on the other side. tommys a lucky bitch and gets the window while i get the isle. BOOO. no im kidding i honestly dont care. he takes a picture of his game for insta and we're off.

we land and walk out of the plane. start taking videos of tommy. theyre really funny and fun. we get to our hotel and get our room.
"i can sleep on the couch," i say to them since there are only 2 beds.
"its up to you i mean im getting a bed," ash says,
"i'll sleep on the couch," i say to them.
"we'll figure it out later," we put our stuff down and i hear tommy whining about leaving. we finally leave and get into a taxi. i can see tommys leg going up and down. hes really nervous. i double tap his hand and i slide my hand in his. i take my other hand and "draw" on his hand. his leg stops shaking at one point thankfully. im nervous to. they cant tell im nervous but i am. like, really nervous.

we pull up to the mall and see tons of people. sapnap told us to go through the back so we did as we were told. as i go in we are in a back rooms looking place. i see tommy grab out his phone and start texting sapnap. we hear a door open on my right to see karl and sapnap. i see karl and almost jump.
we engulf eachother in a hug.
"karl oh my god," i pull away from the hug we start talking and i look over to see sapnap with tommy exchanging hugs. we went through the door for our hugs so i can see a hugs amount of people yelling a screaming. i see some phones out to. we go to sapnap and tommy and i hug sapnap.
we all talk for a bit until they give us a special pass so we are aloud to go inside without being held back. as we start walking i can hear some people yelling for their names and i see them running to go say hi to people and to take photos. i walk behind them and see people yelling and screaming. on my right i hear someone call my name.
"y/n! can i take a picture with you!" i hear someone. oh? im not even that famous or well known?
i take her phone and take a photo with them.
"thank you so much! youre so sweet and so pretty i hope to see you around more," she says to me. aww so sweet.
"aw thank you. you are also very pretty and sweet. how are you?" i ask her.
"im good t-thanks. sorry i cant believe im talking to you its so surreal. are you planning on streaming?" she asks. oh. ive never thought about it.
"oh i dont know. maybe. ive never thought about it but thanks for the idea," i say to her as i hear another person call me. i open my arms and we have a quick hug.
"have a good rest of your day!" i leave and hear her scream to her parents. i take some more pictures until we get called. we walk into the restaurant with a few body guards around us. i feel so protected.

we walk in and we all eat a burger for lunch. then we're back out. ash is recording this part of the experience so i can have more fun out there. we have a good long funny talk until we leave. im wearing lulu pants and tommys blue merch sweater. as we're leaving and talking i tell them i have to go to the washroom.

MASSIVE TW. SA ALSO VERY DECREPTIVE.

i go into a stall and as soon as i try closing a see hands open the door. guys hands. i see him as i try to push him out of the way but he doesnt budge. i kick his balls but he hits my head against the side of the stall. this just ruined my day, week, month, year.
i try to scream and feel tape on my face. fuck. im scared. im so scared. he takes my arms and throw them behind my back and starts kissing and biting my neck. his nails pressing hard against my wrists, leaving marks.
theres no one here. no one to save me.
he keeps kissing and biting my kneck and takes my shirt and bra off while he ties my hands to something behind me. he starts touching me everywhere and kissing or biting everywhere. i keep kicking him with my legs but get slapped every time. i cant do anything. he took my phone and threw it to the side. im uncomfortable and scared. im terrified.
i feel my pants come off. fuck.