Ranboo X reader oneshots

'the panic sets in'

This is a request from blazingmoonshine

Non binary y/n

They them pronouns

Also: d/n is dead name y/n is like.. the name you chose after you realized you were nonbinary
Just wanted to clear that up

Summary: y/n comes out as non-binary and spirals into a panic attack thinking ranboo will hate them for it.

Tw:crying,panic attack. Gender dysphoria suicidal thoughts

Enjoy
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Y/n pov♡

The sun shone in through my curtains realizing I have to get up or else I'll lay around and be dysfunctional again.

I took a deep breathe trying not to cry as I remember I still haven't told anyone yet.

I wish they knew so I didn't have to come out.

I've heard it's the hardest thing to do.

I'm terrified what if ranboo hates me afterwards..

No he wouldn't

Would he.

I push away the thoughts as I grab my phone of the charger only to find out IT WASNT CHARGING AT ALL LAST NIGHT

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING

just fabulous

Absolutely.... wonderful

18%

Fuck it I can deal.

I stood up feeling wobbly

Like you could tap me and I'd just die.

I walked to My closet to find a baggy shirt and pair of pants to match ( you can change it if you'd like to)

I sighed and walked to My bathroom and got dressed.

'Jeez I look like shit' I thought staring into the mirror

The longer I stared the worse I felt but I couldn't look away

I felt the weight of my situation hit me.

A non-binary person in a (male/female) body

God.. what am I doing

Ranboo would dump me for sure right?

He'd hate me so much

I thought trying to dress myself.

I finally got my pants on.

The thoughts got louder and louder

'He'd never love you'

'You're worthless'

'Can't you be happy with the gender your mom birthed you with'

'Kys'

'They them pronouns aren't singular'

'He'll hate you for being non-binary'

The panic sets in.

My chest feels tight.

It's hard to breathe

My head is pounding

My body feels limp

Oh god

Oh god

Tears are falling g down my cheeks

I can't feel my face

My breathing get raggity

Oh god

'Kys'

'Kys'

My thoughts got louder and louder

'KYS'

as did my sobs.

I let out a high picked notice wile struggling to breathe.

Help

I heard footsteps running towards the bathroom.

Quiet knocking could be heard.

"D/n are you ok?"

Oh no it's him

D/n

D/n

D/n

God I can't fucking stand hearing it.

"D/n I'm coming in"

The door opened ranboo stood in the door way looking at me with concern.

Oh no

"Oh my God d/n are you okay honey?"

I shook my head quickly clutching my heart trying to breathe.

He closed the door and sat next to me

He picked me up and set me in his lap.

(Not in a sexual sense)

He pulled me as close as possible.

My head in the crook of his neck.

"Please tell me what's wrong."

I started sobbing harder if that was possible.

"Look at me" He said grabbing my hands.

He put on of my hands on his heart and my other on mine.

"Do you think you can try to match my heart beat?"

I shook my head as a no

"Ok well.. breathe with me then in for ten out for ten ok?"

He held his hands and started to breathe in putting a finger down till he got to ten then started to breathe out for ten as well.

We continued the process till we hit one.

"Do you feel better or should be try something else?"

"Better" is all I managed to say.

I felt ashamed of myself first panic about a gender then making ran comfort me God I'm useless

"Can you tell me what's wrong?"

He grabs my hands and rubs my knuckles with his thumb.

"...I'm non-binary but I thought if I told you you would hate me and want to break up buy I can't stand hearing my dead name."

"Oh I'm so sorry you felt like that I had no idea."

He paused before cupping my face with his hands.

"Listen I could never hate you. I'm attracted to who I'm attracted to and that's you. Nothing can change that. Nothing. I love you for you not your assigned gender. Okay?"

I nodded.

"Have you come up with a name yet?"

"Yeah it's y/n" He smiled.

"That's a great name. It suits you very well."

"Thank you ran."

"You don't have to thank me for doing the bare minimum as a human being. Do you use they/them or is it something else?"

"They/them."

"Okay cool, y/n" I smiled sweetly  at him using my new name.

He kissed my nose.

A sweet simple gesture.

He picked me up and we sat on my bed and watched a movie till we fell asleep cuddling.

His head was on my chest, my hand in his hair, our legs wrapped together, and the TV playing in the background.

I kissed the top of his head.

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Kinda shit but I'm tired so I'll fix it at a later time
But he we are so hope you enjoy
If there are any spelling errors let me know.