Mad Love

Chapter 5

Janella's POV: 

 Nagpapahinga nako dito sa bahay, naisipan kong mauna na dito from station dahil hindi ko na masyado kinakaya yung kaganapan kanina don, and to make it worse, nandon pa yung Jane.

 YES! Hindi ako sumabay kay Joshua dahil masyado silang busy don ng mga kasama niya and nung Jane na yon. 

Mind you, nagagawa pa nilang magtawanan at ang ikinairita kopa, ipinapamuka pa sakin nung Jane na close na close sila ni Joshua. UURRGH! I WOULD'VE SLAPPED THE SHIT OUT OF HER ALREADY IF IT'S NOT ONLY HER PRETTY FACE. Pasalamat siya maganda siya. 

 Pumasok nako ng CR, and nagtaka ako. "Parang may kulang.." Bulong ko sa sarili ko. "Nasan yung bath towel ko? Dito ko lang sinabit sa may malapit sa shower room yun ah" I frustratedly sigh and kumuha nalang ako ng bago at dumeretso nako maligo. 

Could this day get any worse? Si Jane kasi pasimuno lahat neto eh. Naiinis na nga ako sa kanya tas I'm sexually and emotionally frustrated pa. Fuck I need some good sex right now, pero wala naman si Joshua dahil may aasikasuhin daw siyang BIGLAAN. Biglaan my ass, ang sabihin niya mas inuna niya pa yung babae niya keysa saken. 

 I know it's already obvious that there's something between those two, but I just got to have the proof para wala silang kawala saken. Mas mainam nang tama yung hinala ko keysa sa mali diba? And the more I think of them two hanging out to each other, and I don't know for God knows if they're doing something unholy other than just hanging out, the more I lose my trust towards Joshua. Come on now, y'all can't really blame me. 

 I took a nice hot shower, after all, this hot shower situation ang nagpagaan ng diwa ko sa lahat ng mga nangyari today. God Bless who invented hot showers, life savers indeed. 

Lumabas ako ng shower room and look straight in the mirror and appreciate my reflection. I look so flawless, my perfectly shaped hip is totally serving, I even drooled over my medium breast size, and my warm smile. And still, nagagawa parin akong lokohin? 

Then the memory of what did happen at the station came flooding on my head, that Jane is physically perfect. Yes, I do appreciate women, it's just that... when I'm around her earlier, I did feel insecure, kahit may laban naman ako. 

Siguro dahil nakahalata ako na may namamagitan sa kanilang dalawa ni Joshua? And as what I've seen on how she treats the officers, ang bait niya, EXCEPT... OF COURSE... SAKEN.. Pano ko naman nasabe? Dahil girl, iba ang tiningan niya I swear, her gaze earlier at the station got darker compare to our first encounter at the canteen nung mga nakaraan araw. 

May laman talaga tingin niya saken. I don't know if that's her way of telling me para lumayo kay Joshua? Hell No!! Ako ang girlfriend in the first place, kaya siya ang lumayo. 

 Palabas nako ng bathroom and head straight to my small walk-in closet. GOD! Last I checked inayos ko pa to according to the colors. YES, I'M LOWKEY OCD!! Most especially when it comes to my outfits, even my "tambay outfits", so even the smallest detail, like the example magulo ng onti yung mga damit, mapapansin ko kaagad. 

"Ano ba tong si Joshua hindi man lang marunong mag organize ng mga gamit niya" I frustratedly whispered to myself. Magkalapit lang kasi yung closet naming dalawa, pero di hamak na mas magulo yung sa kanya. GOD... Men... I sigh while rubbing my forehead. 

 Bumaba ako ng kitchen if there still something to eat, naalala ko, inubos pala ni Joshua nakaraan yung fav dessert kong 'Molten Chocolate Cake'. Kaya ngayon, magmumukmok nalang ako dito sa kitchen habang maghahanap ng makakain. But once I opened the fridge, there goes my fav dessert na nasa center pa mismo ng ref. 

My eyes sparkled because of this, did Joshua bought this for me? Nakonsensya siguro siya nung inubos niya yung fav pastry ko, dapat lang noh lol.

 But wait... may letter na nakadikit don sa cake box, "Loving you with madness was the best way to stay sane" As I read the card. I blushed so hard, for 3 years, still consistent parin yung pagiging sweet saken ni Joshua. 

But then I realized something, iba yung penmanship don sa card, Joshua's penmanship is quite sabog, meaning pangit, pero yung maiintindihan naman, but this penmanship, I would really think it's written by a... woman? 

 Wait Janella, baka naman pinasulat niya lang yung sa mga kasama niyang babae sa station, or di kaya pinasulat niya don sa cake shop mismo kasi that's possible naman. So I just shrugged it off and went straight to the dining area and I dig to my fav pastry happily, gosh sobrang nakaka-happy talaga, and while I'm eating nawawala trust issues ko ngayon kay Joshua, haist. Ang gulo talaga nung lalaking yon kahit kailan.

 Fast Forward -> 

 Nandito nako sa sofa while watching 'DARNA', now I get it bakit ang daming nagshiship kay darna and valentina, may chemistry nga sila, ang epal lang talaga nung Director dahil masyado nang queer baiting yung storya. I just rolled my eyes after that and nilipat na ang channel.

 Habang nanunuod and nag-sscroll sa phone, napansin ko tong sasakyan sa harap ng apartment, like pag uwi ko dito sa apartment kanina wala pa yan, I don't know if this a car from my neighbor? But if it is, then hindi niya dapat ipark sa tapat ng APARTMENT KO. So I got up and decided to confront my neighbor. 

 Lumabas ako and nakatingin ako sa sasakyan, isang black range rover evoque with tinted windows kaya diko malaman kung merong bang tao sa loob nito, but since the car's engine is off, I assume na baka walang tao, "ano bang klasing kapitbahay to, ipapark nalang, sa tapat pa ng kapitbbahay niya, the nerve" as I whispered to myself. 

 Pagpunta ko sa Neighbors lawn, napansin kong patay ang ilaw nila sa loob? Indicating na walang tao? But how? 

Lumapit ako sa pintuan at kumatok. Knock Knock "Hello po? May tao poba? Yung sasakyan niyo po kasi naka park sa tapat ng bahay ko" as I yelled, but no answer. I knocked again, but no answer, then I decided to peek through the window, nakapatay ang ilaw... So wala ngang tao? Eh kaninong sasakyan to? I wonder. 

Kaya bumalik ako but this time, papalapit ako sa sasakyan, kumatok ako sa bintana ng driver's seat baka kasi mamaya may taong naglalampungan lang pala sa loob at naisip na perfect spot ipark yung sasakyan nila sa tapat ng apartment ko pa. 

 Pagkatok ko sa bintana "H-hello? May tao ba sa loob?" sabi ko, then a millisecond after, nagbukas ang engine dahilan ng pagkabigla ko. 'so may tao pa pala sa loob all this time?'

 Instead of opening the driver's seat window, bigla niya nalang ito pinaandar. "what the hell!" sabi ko sa sarili ko. 

 I didn't catch the plate number dahil sobrang harurot nung pagtakbo niya, ano ba problema non?

 I shrugged it then dumeretso nako sa bahay, just when I stepped into my apartment, I received a message from Joshua, 'Hi mommy, sorry di ako makakauwi today, nagkaroon lang ng meeting yung PNP makati and required kameng pumunta lahat, sorry if late ko na nasabi, babawi ako sayo pagkauwi ko, I love you'. 

This pissed me off, hindi paba enough yung nangyare don kanina sa station!??  Talagang sinusubukan ako neto, alam kong dahilan niya lang yung meeting na yon, but the truth is, his agenda will be Jane. 

How did I know? I just know, sa tingin palang nila kanina eh.Now I calmly take my breath, and said to myself "Janella, this is the perfect time para mag imbestiga ka and maghanap ng proof". And with that, nag prepare lang ako ng gamit and nagpallit ng damit, humanda talaga sila. Jane Florence De Leon, ipaparamdam kong sayo ang kamandag ko.