I'm drowning in a thousand seas

Sometimes
I'm thinking
I'm drowning
in a thousand seas
of worries

I feel as I'd
the weaves
roll over me
as if I can see
my doom coming and still
I can't keep swimming

The strand
isn't far
rescue a meter away
and yet I stay

frozen
chosen
by the terror
I feel
I see
it all before me

I can see it coming
closer
feel the salt
in my mouth
already
know how my throat
will hurt
swallowing
salty taste

I can't escape

and yet I can escape

Would be so fucking easy
it's scary

How I am here
and not there

Water all around
I don't make a sound

Eyes wide open
and yet
I see nothing

Arm and legs moving
yet
so numb

Ears listening
yet
hearing not a thing

feeling the breeze
the cold
and old
yet I feel bold

All consuming
the blue
violet green
it's all I see
it coming on
to me

Know it's bigger
than I'll ever be
feel my bones
like stones
dragging me
down
below

I should
I could
go

Yet I brave
myself

I don't
run
I stay

I know
I should go

Should run
and flee

And yet I stay
I don't pray

Eyes wide
prepared

I know
I should
I could
go

But I'm going to face
the beggiste enemy

the worries
the fears
the tears
all inside

I'm drowning
in a thousand seas
of worries

Nightmares
and tears
are the drops
of this sea

Doubt
builds
the sharks
their teeth
are looks
in
the mirror

The salt
of the sea
are the cruel
words of others
repeated
over
and over
again
and again

It's coming closer
that weave

And yet I don't cave

I am drowning
and yet I'm still
standing