Dedicated to sufferers of Bulimia
Smiles in the day
But in the night she's sad
Because when she's alone
Without her friends
To laugh
To be distracted
That's when she thinks
Lost in a sea of thoughts, always pulling one way, always pulling the other
Dragging her under
Until the currents from her eyes
Pull her under
She almost drowns
Stares in the mirror
Hates what she sees
Lies and walks away
Pretends she's still happy
Walks past again
Cracks
The pain sparks a wave of hate
No one but herself to blame
Because around every corner
Hanging off every thread
Rearing its ugly head
Filled with dread
Gets back up, thinks she's a winner
Smiles
She doesn't need to be thinner
But it's back
Snapping it's head
Willing her to do it
Smiles
Lies
Vomits
Cries
Lies
Just an endless cycle
Of sadness
Joy
But then
In the end
She just wants to die
