[EDITING] My 23 Step-Brothers {NCT FF}

17 - ꜰᴇᴇʟɪɴɢꜱ

Jiho POV :

Home is worse than ever. Some of my brothers have abused me. I keep bleeding. I went to the emergency room four times already. that doesn't help though they are my brothers I don't care. Yiren and meimei don't care at all. All they talk about is fashion and money, and gossip. They ditched me for some other girl. Thank god I don't get physically bullied in school I do receive verbal bullying, but it's better than home. Mom doesn't ask me if I'm doing okay, but I'm not surprised she always gets mad at me for things that weren't even my fault. She yells at me for everything. step-father is different. He always tries to ask how I am or even calls, but usually, mom doesn't allow that. she wants step-father to focus on their work, but the thing is that step-father forgot to hang up, and I didn't realize either that the call didn't end till I heard moans and clapping. I hung up in disgust. I notice more the days pass by the more I fall into depression. I started cutting myself with a pocket knife which is used as a defense knife. Luckily for me, it's winter, so I get to cover up my cuts. I cut my thighs more often because no one checks there anyways. I have been making eye contact with my old best friends, momo, sana, and nayeon. They noticed I had been more depressed, but they still don't talk to me 

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Jaehyun POV:

It was another day of winter. Today was going to snow at night, and I wanted to go home and finish my homework and then go back to a cafe and admire the snow falling just in time. I come in and see as usual Jiho getting beaten up.

 Then all the boys looked at me and then just left her crying, but then Johnny came up to her." I told you not to fucking cry you bitch," said Johnny raising her chin and giving her a death stare.

 Jiho sniffed and nodded to him. Johnny let go of her face and went to the kitchen. I saw Jiho crying silently I wanted to say if she wanted to go to the cafe with me, but I guess she went through enough trouble today and should rest

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Time skip (still jaehyun pov)

I'm walking home right now the snow is so beautiful I just came out of the cafe with a coffee in my hand. It was for Jiho. I don't even know why I brought her it but I felt I needed to. to be honest, I have been thinking of Jiho these past few days. everything I see reminds me of her. since ever she gets abused she never had a smile on her face, but one time she was watching a show and saw her smiling so I took a pic of her, of course, I don't know why, but I just did it. I realized I might have feelings for her. I was thinking about her all night.

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Next morning (still jaehyun pov): 

I got up and did my morning routine. Today was Saturday and we had no school. I noticed the house was so quiet but I heard some people talking downstairs. I notice all the hyungs (older brothers/members) were talking in the living room with stressful looks. I went downstairs to see the problem or what the hyungs were talking about. They all looked at me when I came down.

 It was silent then taeyong said "Jaehyun we need to tell you something important," he sighed.

 "What happened? Why is everyone look so worried?" I asked

"Jiho...." Johhny said, 

"Jiho what?" I said in a confused tone

"Jiho... ran away" - Taeil said looking down at his feet got up quickly

y "What do you mean Jiho ran away?" I asked in a panicked voice

"We couldn't find her this morning, we looked all around the house but she was nowhere to be found," said Doyoung

"We even went around the town, like the supermarkets, schools, parks, etc," - said Kun

"We needed to find her because step-mom called us and asked us where she was, and we couldn't find her at all," - said Ten was purely shocked.

 None of us even excepted Jiho to run away. We all knew that she would have died if we found her. I couldn't believe it. I ran upstairs to my room and got my phone. I dialed Jiho's numbers but never picked up

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timeskip to night (jaehyun pov)

 That whole day we couldn't contact her or even found her, we later told the younger brothers that Jiho ran away and all of that. that night I started to cry silently because we all had failed to protect her........no, we didn't even protect her at all. We were the problem.

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-BRO IT HAS BEEN SO LONG OMG HAPPY NEW YEAR AND IM SO SORRY FOR NOT WRITING THAT MUCH THIS YEAR I WILL TRY AT LEAST TO FINISH 3 CHAPTERS EACH MONTH THANK YOU GUYS FOR THE SUPPORT AND I CANT BELIEVe WE GOT 1K VIEWS