is it a secret
or
is it an addiction
to be the one who harms yourself
if you can count on anything, it's that
the razor is my best friend
i share all my vulnerable moments with her
i let her close to me
so close that it hurts
so close that the blood pools around my wrists
so close, she convinced me to fill up the tub with like warm water
and to bring her in with me
i hold her right against my thighs
the water turns red
my emotions fade,
as well as the rest of the room around me.
