every time i have to update i'm always in a bad place mentally.
anyway. let me explain why i am writing a new chapter.
this is of course about kayla. i thought the past was the past, but she can't let sleeping dogs lie.
yesterday i cut kayla off because i realized she's not good for me. if you noticed my mb rants☠ anyway, i cut her off in a pain free way for me but she had to twist everything of course.
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she got mad at me bc i decided to focus on myself, on my mental health, on my life.
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okay then brandonsimp24-7 brought up chlo, myself and fallon. she ranted to me about it and to this day i haven't a baldys on what she meant by that. she told me to get over myself, i was never under myself...?
she asked me to leave her alone whilst she ranted about me on her message board, you really thought i wouldn't reciprocate?
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then she asked me to stop playing the victim card and asked when she said "kys" to me. i told her up above and here's the image if you want!
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it wasn't a quite literal "kys" remark but it was on the right track.
she told me to leave her gf alone ( brandonsimp24-7 ) (or she was at that point) i don't understand if they were gfs or anything.
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then she accused me of LYING about my gfs existence. -elviss . i got really hurt by this statement. it genuinely made me believe bellatrix was one of my delusions and i had to wait for a call from her to confirm that she was real. this angered me most.
then this morning at like 10am i got this message;
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in short it was:
"i shouldn't have overreacted to you cutting me off. i have my own problems and im not saying you havent but i should've checked in on you. i loved speaking to you. *cough* manipulating me. i just assumed you were fine and i realize im not as close to you as chloe or trixxie. i shouldn't have called her fake and im so sorry, you're still gonna cut ties. i'm a shit friend but im trying."
girl, who do you think you're fooling?? that apology didn't change anything. i still feel mentally and physically drained, i still feel manipulated and played and i still feel betrayed. i don't want to update this book again and if i have to i will actually cry.
