Attention|| Baji x Chifuyu

Chapter 7

baji's pov

that night i heard them talk was painful to the point that i can't focus in class, i don't have any energy to mess up with chifuyu again.. and I don't have the strength to talk

i stayed silent until afternoon. kazutora tried talking to me in the dorm but i refused to talk back, i just left. i walked out to go in the school garden

"I hate you too Chifuyu! but why like this you damn stupid... stupid idiot!" i said as if chifuyu is infront of me

all those words he said, all those feelings he let kazutora see. everything. it bugged my mind and my soul

ever since i moved in a dorm with him, this fuzzy feeling i always feel in my chest never left me. it was just one night but i already got hard time taking him off my mind

he gave me butterflies, which he should not

"Damn you.. I don't like you seriously. I just want to mess up with you" that's what i know. that's what i told myself of what i really feel for chifuyu

when kazutora told me "You won't like him I swear, and he won't like you also" he was never wrong when he told me that you'll never like me. i thought he'll get it right when he said i won't like you but here i am..

i'm upset because of you

that time... "It's too early for this Baji! How dare you!"

when your face greeted mine as close as the wall.. it was the best. i happened to see your beautiful ocean eyes..

"B-Baji! What are you thinking?! Don't just make fuss here, damn it! The other classrooms are having a lesson!" what's the bestest? when you helped me hold back my anger. i assumed to myself that you hugged me, i liked it..

but then i told you something i'm not supposed to do

"No no no! I'm so sorry I didn't mean to! I didn't mean to Baji" when you fell with me in the floor, i saw your face closer to me, on top of me. i always wondered, i always thought if i could ever see you again like that

starting that day everything gets worse and worse between us, chifuyu, you distanced yourself from me

i was okay with that until i saw you one time eating with kazutora. i felt so jealous "Why am I even staring at them!" that's all i can say

then last night.. what you told to kazutora, "I hate him Kazutora…", nothing hurts than that chifuyu do you know that?

i know i told you a lot of hurtful words, i know that hurts you too.. but those words you said to kazutora took a large part of my happiness today, you made me think of my self as the baddest of all

whatever you say, anyway, my feelings for you just got worse everytime i come back to the past

the past that happened to us when we can still fix it with a sorry. now, can i fix it with sorry?

i realized i started crying, pulling down my hair as sweats rolled down in my face along with my tears

how weak could i be when it comes to you?

"I'll ask myself.." i sobbed, "Did I really fell in love with you, Chifuyu?.. This feelings I feel right now, is this really true?"

"You made me cry, I never do this on love I wasn't serious about"

i heard footsteps coming on my way, and it was kazutora

"Look at you Baji. Crying, sobbing and talking to your self as if you did the biggest mistake in the world to be called a criminal"

"What are you doing here? Just go away"

"So it's a serious love you feel? Why didn't you tell me? I can help you whenever I can you know" kazutora sat beside me and rubbed my back

finally, someone, a friend i can really open up my feelings. kazutora, in times like this, he is the only one i can talk to

"Kazutora what should I do..? I can't decide by myself for a while, I know I'll just make everything worst"

"Do you really mean what you just said to your self? About Chifuyu?"

"Ofcourse, do you think I can just cry over a toy?"

kazutora sighed. i know he's already tired of me being like this, but then, he keeps understanding me

"Make it up to him by helping him things you can help, do something that'll make him happy, and mostly, say sorry and tell him that you like him"

i slapped kazutora, "What do you think of me? I can't just tell him what I feel!? Didn't you hear him, he's not gay damn it"

"Ow you shit! Then don't slap me!"

kazutora then laughed at me like i was joking, "You can't tell Baji.. Chifuyu told me something you don't need to know"

"Hah?! Come on Kazutora tell me what!"

"It's a friends' secret! You'll find out anyway"

we laughed together after i felt a lot better while we were talking. i realized i can still fix things up

"Baji! Kazutora! Where are the two of you? Oi! Bajiii!"

"Chifuyu? Oh were here, me and Baji just talked about schoolworks. He cried because he got a low score" kazutora stood up and pointed me behind him as he faced chifuyu

chifuyu then just looked at me, and then to kazutora, "Let's go back to the dorm Kazutora, it's already dark"

just kazutora? i was here too.. aren't i? can you tell me that i also need to go back to the dorm.. chifuyu?

kazutora nodded. once chifuyu turned his back to us and started walking he pulled my hands so that i could start walking with them

"Don't take this too serious.. Chifuyu just stayed away from you because you know why" he whispered to me, which i understood quick

chifuyu got a little far from us so kazutora walked beside me

"Did you got hurt because he didn't call you out?"

"A lot?"

"Hahaha, you learned your lesson Baji. Just don't be too hard headed, do what I told you to do for him I'm one hundred percent sure it'll work"

"Sure?"

"Yeah, a lot sure Baji. Trust me geez, that's just Chifuyu. He's not that bad, he does forgiveness"

once we got in the dorm me and kazutora smelled something delicious, we found out that chifuyu cooked for dinner

"I.. k-kind of cooked something for us.. I'm not good at cooking so I'll already pardon my cooking for you Baji"

"Al-Alright" i nodded

"Come on Baji! Let's eat food, this is your favorite isn't it?!" kazutora ran to the table and sat down in the chair

"M-My favor-" kazutora looked at me and signed, just go with my flow, this food is delicious i swear

"Fine idiot, I'm coming"

chifuyu joined us in the table and sat beside kazutora with a small smile on his face

"F-Free to scold me if it's not that delicious-"

"Nah, it's tasty"i looked at him then looked down again

he looked at me as if he didn't believe what i told him. i already expected that anyway. i know hr won't believe me that fast

"W-Well, alright, uhm.. Eat well, I guess"

"Ya'll stop being like that! Eat all you can, it's delicious ya know!" kazutora said, trying to keep the smile on our faces visible

as usual, he is kazutora.