It's 9:00 in evening, and I was here laying in my bed, staring at the white ceiling here in my boarding, and thinking about what happened earlier.
He just broke up with me, with all of the things happened, siya pa Ang may lakas gawin yun.
I'm not mad or something I'm just confused, it's just like.. ganun lang ba kadali sa kanya yun? I dont know his POV on doing that maybe he has his own reasons.. or.. or.. or I dont know.
I take a deep breath before lifting up my phone and read our last message that just happen earlier.
Him: Take care of your health and don't think again of dropping at school, this is the last Hestia, I love you.
I love you?
If he really love me, he's not going to leave me.. right?
And you know what's more painful? Today is October 4, yesterday is October 3 and that's my birthday, and tomorrow is October 5, our monthsarry.. funny right?
I just laugh in sarcasm and exit in our Convo and deleted it.
"It's already useless" I whisper at my self full of bitterness.
After deleting our Convo, I delete all the memories and pictures in my gallery. For me this is the easy way to forget. While deleting, every picture that I see is taking a flashback, the flashback when we went to SM baguio, Moving up on Grade 10, The Mass during our junior highschool days, our first picture, his stolens that I take and the kiss that I gave him on the forehead after the mass.
I just laugh in sarcasm and shook my head. He's not worth it after all. I deleted all, and everything that is connected to him.
After deleting all of that, I off my phone and place it beside me, until now I'm still confused and asking why? He just leave me without explanation.
"Bakit Kalvin? Sa lahat Ng mga nalaman ko sayo pinagpatuloy ko paring mahalin ka, ilang beses akong napagod pero tuloy parin, pero Ikaw.. parang minsan ka lang napagod bumitaw ka na" pahina na pahina na bulong ko sa sarili ko.
But what am I doing is useless cause he will not answer. I just sigh and close my eyes, as I close my eyes I felt my tears fall down. Kanina pa pala ako nag pipigil.
"No Hestia, he's not worth it! Don't cry Hestia don't cry" I repeatedly whisper to my self.. Hanggang sa hindi ko namalayan na nakatulog na pala Ako.
MALAKAS na tunog ng alarm ko ang gumambala sa akin mula sa pagtulog.
Pipikit pikit kong kinapa ang aking cellphone, at nang mahanap ko ito'y agad ko iyong in-off at tinignan ang oras.
Its already 9:00am. Ang tagal ko palang natulog
Today is Wednesday, Wala akong schedule, batch 2 ako e.
I take a deep breath before totally waking up and jumping a little, para mahimasmasan. After doing that I open my room and go to kitchen to cook for my breakfast, a late breakfast to be exact.
I was in the middle of eating when my phone beep. My forehead creased before getting my phone and it's a chat from Kuya Shawn.
Zenpai Shawn
Tara BSU? Mamayang gabi? Pagkatapos ng klase namin
Ah oo nga pala batch 1 sya, schedule nang mga batch 1 today
Agad akong tumipa sa cellphone ko para mag reply
Zenpai Shawn
Sure, Basta libre mo ko brader ehehe
Agad nam itong nag reply
Zenpai Shawn
Sigi Ngayon lang naman
Napangisi ako at agad mag reply
Zenpai Shawn
Yown, geh ba
Nag heart react sya sa message ko, halatang siningit lang sa klase yung pag message e no.
Agad kong tinapos ang pagkain ko at nag hugas narin ng pinggan na mga ginamit ko kahapon, inabala ko ang sarili ko para di ko maisip yung nangyari kagabi.
"TEKA LANG" sigaw ko habang ina ayos ang eyeliner ko.
"Bilisan mo naman, mahaba na naman ang pila mamaya" rinig kong reklamo ni kuya ko na tumatawa tawa naman.
Masama ko syang tinignan bago sumagot "aba Malay ko bang mag e- escape kayu Ng maaga? Akala ko mamaya pang five--"
"Achu chu chu, dalian mo na, Dami mong dada" anito bagu lumabas Ng boarding ko
Inis kong binalik ang tingin ko sa salamin at tinuloy ko ang aking ginagawa.
Ang aga ba namang pumunta dito, alas tres palang e.
Habang nag e-eyeliner ay naalala ko tuloy kung paano napunta si kuya Michael samin.
His full name is Shawn Michael Sabado. Hindi ko sya biological brother, pinsan ko lang sya, but he's adopted by my parent's since he's a baby, that's why I consider him as my biological brother.
He's Grade 11 right now, same kami ng grade but he's already 20 years old, nag repeat repeat kasi at ngayun lang naisipang mag tino.
Huminga ako ng malalim at tinapos ang pag e-eyeliner, agad akong lumabas ng boarding ko at ni lock na Yun, kita ko naman si Kuya at si Jelord na barkada ni Kuya ay naghihintay na sa labas.
"Okay na?" Tanong ni Kuya sakin.
Sarkastiko akong tumingin sa kanya "hindi ba obvious? Duh" sagot ko sabay irap.
Dinig ko naman ang malakas nitong pagtawa at saka ako inakbayan.
"Pilosopo" dinig kong bulong neto at sumabay sa paglakad ko samantalang si Jelord ay nasa likod namin.
Ngumisi nalang ako at umiling bago magpatuloy sa paglakad.
By the way, I'm Hestia Dianne Sabado Cuavez an Grade 11 student.
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