LOSING GAME

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"GANDA" Yun Ang unang lumabas sa bibig ko nang makarating na kami ng Benguet State University in short BSU.

I roamed around my eyes to see the view, while I was busy looking and admiring the view when I heard kuya and Jelord conversation.

"Ano? Tara? Nag aaya sina Mia" I heard Jelord said

"Tara sayang libre" dinig ko namang sagut nung balasubas kung kuya.

Kunot nuo akong humarap sa kanila at nag salita.

"So iiwan nyo ko Dito?" Mejo inis na tanong ko sa kanila

"Hindi ba obvious? Duh" panggagaya ni Kuya sa boses ko

Abat!?

"Kuya!? Seriousl--"

"Oo seryoso,. oi kaya dito ka na at babalik din kami mamaya mag Cha chat Ako Dianne" derederetsang sagot nya sa akin at tinalikuran ako ng walang pa-a-alinlangan.

At kumaway pa ang gagu!

Napabuntong hininga nalang ako at napailing.

Ano pa nga ba? Wala namang pinag bago iniwan na naman ako

Huminga nalang ako ng malalim at ngumiti.

Okay Hestia you should enjoy this night!

Pang bo-boost ko sa sarili ko at sinimulang mag picture, lahat na ay pinicturan ko, nagtawag pa ako ng mga di ko kakilala at nagpa picture sa kanila.

Kung saan saan ako nag picture hangang sa nagsawa ako at umupo sa isang bench.

I was smiling and laughing at my self, pero kalaunan ay unti unting nawala ang ngiti ko.

Then a memory crept into my mind, the time that we're still happy. Fuck!

Potangina!

Mariin ako nang pumikit at pinilit kinalma ang sarili

"Shh Hestia don't cry shh.. he's not worth it please Hestia, he didn't even fight for you, Hestia please stop" I pleaded to my self but the more I stop my self the more I got emotional.

And calming my self is useless because at the end I found my self sitting in the bench looking at the sky while my tears are streaming down to my chicks.. and that's because of a guy.

Kalvin Calf  Vargas

The guy that I hate and yet love the most.

I closed my eyes and let my self remember everything.

The more I remember those memories the more I get hurt, I can feel it in my whole body, my knees are trembling and I can feel a weird feeling in my stomach.

I just smile in bitterness.

"I hate you Kalvin, I hate you" I weakly whisper to my self.

And there's nothing new, I just cried again an again, I let go all the pain I'm feeling, and promising to my self... this is the last that I'm going to cry for him, and tomorrow Im going back to my old self.

MAG ISA akong umuwi ng boarding ko Kasi nag chat sakin SI Kuya na mamaya pa silang ala una uuwi.

Great!

Ngayon nasa boarding na ako at agad sumalampak sa kama habang mugto ang mga mata.

'Kaw ba naman umiyak ng umiyak hayst.

I just took a deep breath and close my eyes and force my self to sleep, I don't care if I don't change my clothes or wash my face and do my skin care, all I care is for me to sleep and forget everything just for an hours.