CONTRADICTION

Contradiction contradiction...
I want you
I don't want you
Come here!
Stay away!!!
All this repulsion and attraction
tames me... What an endless war... 
Cuffing myself
Throwing the keys
and running into a dark room wanting to be something free when indeed I was...
Craving the gift to give while
Locking all these treasures

Its pointless like some reasons I make up...
To suppress my hunger for  pleasurable desires

It's Questionable
Yet answerable
Ignorance is bliss
Silence is gold
Because it's worth the truth
So rare but so free
To those who don't claim ownership to be the truth
So rich but so non existent
The essence of yesterday may be forgotten

I cover myself in contradictions
I breathe contradiction
I live in contradiction
I am an contradiction

In this space and time
Nothing really matters
But these life attachments
Bound me to make sure all things matter

They are the mother of my happiness
The birth of my light
It is through this warmth and nature

I AM
I WAS
I WILL,

BE THE ESSENCE OF WHAT LIES BEYOND