𝒎𝒚 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔 𝒂𝒔 𝒂 𝒑𝒐𝒆𝒎♡︎

love of my life

i'm afraid,
afraid that i would never feel what love is,

people write love songs,
love letters,
smile at texts,
feel butterflies,

but i didn't,

every guy who show interest in me are the good ones,
but i always step back and run away,

maybe the love of my life is dead,
maybe the love of my life is loving someone else,

maybe i don't deserve him at all,
maybe he's still stuck up in some drama,

my friends crush on guys,
they keep talking about how handsome,how cute,how lovely they are,

and i sit silently,
because i don't met a guy who hit me hard right to the core,

i'm afraid,
am i too hard to deal with?
am i too bossy?
too crazy?

maybe i grow a little impatient,
maybe i am not in the position to meet the love of my life,

but now all that i know,
is that
i ache for the love,
i also want to hold hands and eat ice cream,
travel around the town,
sing out my playlist,
fall in love over and over again,

if the love of my life is out there,
please find me,
life gets hard,
i hope we find each other this year.