Hermione's Desires

Magic Knows Best

#16,361+words Edited 02/05/2022

Pairing: Severus Snape/Hermione Granger

Side Pairing: Blaise Zabini/Ginny Weasley Draco Malfoy/Astoria Greengrass

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Severus POV

Who knew that I would still be alive after nearly being killed by riddles pet snake but I am and it's all down to miss know-it-all granger, though I am grateful that she thought of me during the battle and that she placed me in stasis after she pouring all of my 'back-up plan' potions down my throat before heading towards the battle, when it was all over and riddle was finally dead the chit even came back for me and took care of me whilst poppy was trying to help everyone else, I have only been awake for 20 minutes and according to what poppy has told me that she doesn't know anything about my healing because hermione was the one who has taken cared of me whilst I was in a deep sleep, and now I would like answers to my questions and looks like she is ready to give me them as she moved towards me sighing heavily as she sat down "I know you wish to know about how I saved you but I don't think...no I know you wont like it, before I answer that though could I ask you something first it's just one thing that's all" she whispered gently, probably to not let anyone hear us but I saw her waving her hand and then I felt the magic surrounding us, she shrugged her shoulder "I'll explain that after my question if you still wish to know that is" she asked slowly

I nod my head and replied carefully since my throat was still very painful even with the potions I had brewed myself "I want to know, so ask your question" I could see her having a mental debate with herself before she sat up straight and looked me in the eyes "did you know that you'd might not survive the war, did you wish to die, had you given up on life completely" I opened my mouth to spew anger at her but then she raised her hand quickly, obviously seeing my expression "no I don't mean that to judge you or the decision you made, but what happened when I tried to save you might make you bitter not just at life but at me and I wish to understand your reasons" she said quickly and I took note of how calm she said it but it was her eyes that told me the truth, she wasn't judging me for thinking I was better of dead, she truly wanted to understand my reasons

"Serving two 'masters' both of whom always wanted something doing, I never got the time to live a life, my life belonged to them and they were both happy to make it miserable but sitting here I don't feel that bitterness or resentment anymore" I slowly answered her question now knowing that she did actually want a 'proper' answer and not what others assume what I mean "I'm glad that you don't feel like that anymore....we were hiding only a few feet away from you and riddle, that was not a very nice place to be when we witnessed what he had ordered the snake to do, when he left we waited a couple of minutes before running over to you, by then the venom was quickly spreading throughout your body, you gave harry your memories...." {damn it, I forgot that I gave the brat those memories} I snarled knowing the context was probably known throughout the wizarding world by now and must of seen the panic in my eyes and she quickly spoke

"It's alright, calm down I have them here with me, kingsley and a few particular members of the Wizengamot are the only ones who have seen them and then he returned them, poppy was busy at the time and he knew that I was aware of what they were so he gave them to me" she paused to take a deep breath "I don't know what's in them, and whilst I was curious about them I never asked, harry was made to swore an oath by Kingsley to not mention anything he saw in your memories, after they were taken out of his possession, which was quickly done since he can't keep anything a secret from ron" I calmed down as she continued to talk and she even placed the vial of memories in my hand, knowing that miss granger was never one to lie about anything too important I let it go but I held onto the vial tightly, she shook her head "this is where it gets complicated, I'm afraid" she started saying and leaned back in her chair and she rubbed her forehead