The Game Plan

One | Bennett

"Myers, I've warned you too many damn times about this" Coach yelled as we sat in his office
He was reprimanding me about my grades again but that was the least of my concern and he knew that
"I'm trying. I swear" I lied
Lately, going to class and getting the grades I need was not on my radar
In fact it hadn't been for a while

"You don't leave me with much of a choice. If you want to keep your captaincy, this needs to change" He warned me, it was the same old threat he'd been using all year. One I was slowly becoming immune too

"I'm not joking around with you Bennett, in fact.. Clear your plans tonight" He demanded making me raise a brow at him
"Your tutor will be at the house at 6pm, do not fuck this up. This is your last shot or you'll be off the team completely" He said 

I wanted to call his bluff, I wanted to laugh and say that he wouldn't do that but honestly I couldn't
Being on the team was the only thing that matter, it's the only thing that has ever mattered
Whether I was prepared to admit it or not, Hockey was the only thing I could do to feel like I was doing something right
You take that away from me and all you'll be left with is the same empty shell I've been for years

Without bothering to say another word, I walked out of the office. There was no way coach was going to give me a get off of this card.
I didn't need a freaking tutor though
How dumb does he think I am? That I need some book work looking over my shoulder scrutinising everything I was doing 

"What's the damage then B" Dom asked the moment I took a step back into the locker room. To my luck, there was only the four of us left. I don't think I would have stomached the entire team hearing about this bullshit
"I have a tutor coming tonight at 6" I growled slamming my locker shut. There was a snigger that passed through both Hayden and Finn which caused both Dom and I to glare at them 

These boys and I have seen everything, we've been through team after team together, game after game together. They were the only sense of stability I head over the years. I might not the easiest person to get along with but I do appreciate these idiots 
Yes, I mean that.. They are fucking idiots

"So that means?" Dom asked clearing his throat
"I'm not off the team yet but I need to get through the next set of exams without failing" I reminded him
"So this is the final showdown then?" Hayden asked making my grumble in approval
"Then let's get you back on track Buddy" Finn said tapping my shoulder making me instantly shudder at his touch pushing him off only to then earn a chuckle from him

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After a mild blackmail, I managed to get the boys to agree they wouldn't step foot into the dinning room the minute that the tutor got here
Honestly, I didn't have a clue as to what I should be expecting. I didn't know if it was guy or a girl, I didn't know their major. Hell I didn't really give a shit 

There are here for one reason and one reason only. To make sure I pass with flying colours

"Have you spoke with your Dad?" Dom asked coming into the kitchen as I grabbed myself a glass of water
"About what exactly?" I asked
"Hey Dad, the one son you have left is about yay far away from flunking out of the team" I offered but Dom sighed
"Bennett, you know that he doesn't expect you to be doing this right? I know you want to for Sa-" He started before I cut him off
"Do not finish that sentence Dom" I warned
"I'm just saying. Nobody would blame you for throwing in the towel" He offered but I shook my head 

That wasn't an option, that was never a fucking option 

"It's been almost 5 years with out him huh" Dom said keeping his distance from me, probably unsure as to how I was going to react
"Yup" I grumbled
"He was the best captain any of our teams have ever had" I said placing my glass down on the counter

"Now I don't agree with that. You're alright" he chuckled but I shook my head
"No, it was Sam's calling. I was never one for it but here we are" I muttered turning to walk out of the door 

I didn't need to talk about Sam right now, it wasn't going to bring him back and it certainly wasn't going to help my mood over this entire tutor situation 

The hallway was full of Finn and Hayden yelling at the TV meaning they were doing one of 2 things, watching some sports game or playing a video game
I think had I chose to live alone like everyone thought I would,  I would definetly be more isolated then I already am

Being isolated is the best decision I ever made. I might have these 3 idiots but they aren't going anywhere
I could yell at them, be little them but they wouldn't care
I don't need anyone else especially when the boys closest to me don't even know the full story nor do I think I'll ever tell them

The more I stood here listening to the boys, the more I couldn't help but think back to Sam. To how we used to be as kids
I would be lying if I said there wasn't a part of me that question what we would be like if he was still here

Would we be here together? 
Would he have helped with everything that the family had been through?
Would we still have the same relationship we had back then?

All questions that I wish I had the answers to.. But all the questions that will never be able to have an answer too

I closed my eyes for a second, thinking back to what everyone keeps telling me
If Sam was here, he wouldn't blame you..

That's all good and well.. but I blame me