𝐀 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫

Chapter 7

They said admiring someone is not serious, it's like you admired his personality or appearance. It's also a distraction that every you do, you will feel anxious. But what you will called to admiring someone and be inspired? I don't know what's the real meaning of crush, admire, like, and love. I thought that they are the same but when I remember that I ask Zaire about these. She said that "admire makes you distracted, like makes you like their physical appearance, and love you won't know what's the reason why you fall." Yun yung sabi niya sakin before nung naging sila ng crush niya.

So what I felt to Hendrix is still unknown. I feel distract and inspired by him but I don't know what makes me inspired. It just because of his personality right? Maybe he's personality is way different to others that's why I'm inspired. The most thing that I like is his butt. Humagikhik nalang ako sa iniisip ko.

"Why are you giggling?" Bulong ni—

"Lauryn" tumayo yung balahibo ko. He's so hot whispering my name. He giggled and ask.

"Your blushing" bulong niya at pinindot yung cheeks ko. Iniwas ko yung tingin ko at pagalit akong nagsalita.

"It because your too lapit" he laugh at me. He's laugh is hot and he's Adams apple move. I'm now curious why boys do have an Adams apple. Before I don't like Adams apple, it looks ugly and hindi talaga nakaka attract kasi parang bukol. But know looking at Hendrix's Adams apple while laughing and moving. Parang ang Adams apple ang nag connect sa boses niya kasi he sounds husky and hot. He look so handsome with his Adams apple. Napalunok ako, im so curious what it feels like touching it.

Napansin niyang nanahimik ako kaya tinignan niya ako, nag iwas ako ng tingin at niligpit ang mga gamit ko. Tumayo naku at umalis na. Andito kasi ako sa field para magpa hangin. Naboring ako kasi hindi ko na kasama si Zaire, I look like an irregular student but Hendrix came and distract me from thinking about what happen to Zaire months ago.

He distract me of my overthinks and he inspired me when I went to work. I know it's obvious but I still wanna know. Kasi mabilis lang kami nagkakilala then magusgustuhan ko na siya? For what reason? Because he pissed me off that day? He made me distract or I just play along?

"Play along na parang na fall? Really?" Sabi ko sa sarili ko.  I don't even know what his point of view kasi parang feeling ko is may interest siya sakin. Why a man will react like his a boyfriend? Ofcourse the answer is he likes her.

" Hayss buhay" hmm bakit kaya iba iba ang storya ng nakakarami? Like they also have their own lovelife story or worst experience.

My plan is to be rich tita pero how? Malapit naku mag graduate and my sister is still in elementary. Bibili ng maraming aso and cats?. Travel ulit? Parang nalibot ko na lahat, also I'm an independent, I have a lot of experiences. I have a lot of money, makakagawa ako ng sariling company if I just want to.

Nung lumayo si Zaire parang naging boring ang college life ko. I can handle my time naman pero iba din yung may gumugulo sa araw mo.

Ganito pala yung feeling na ma out of cast na parang irregular ka. So now I know why irregular students here in our university are going home immediately kasi wala silang friends man lang para mag bond. Should I make friends with irregular student?

Hindi ko napansin na nasa baseball field na pala ako napadpad. Kung hindi lang sumigaw yung babae ay baka nag D-Day dreaming parin ako. I was about to look back when someone grab me and cover me with his arm.

I was so shock kasi may stain sa uniform ko, I mean blood in my shirt. I don't know how to process the incident.

Umangat yung ulo ng nag cover sakin at nakita kung si Hendrix yun.

"Your such a troublesome, why you're here in this field. This field is dangerous. What if matamaan ka?" Puno ng pag-alala na ani niya, tinitigan ko lang yung duguon niyang ulo. I don't know how to react, I'm speechless sa nakikita ko. I'm not afraid of blood but seeing someone save me from danger na embis ako ang matamaan ay cinover up pa niya ako just to protect me.

He smiled at me bago pa siya makapag salita ay natumba na siya. Buti nalang andoon yung mga kaklase niya na sumalo agad sa pagtumba niya.

It's my fault why he's now in hospital. Natulala ako sa nangyari at natulala ako kung pano ko haharapin yung university officers nila at yung parents niya. He's a scholar here in University of Mindanao. Lagi siya rito every month dahil may competition at inuutusan din siyang dalhin yung papers dito.

Isa din siya sa SSG ng school nila kaya maraming concern sa kanya. Dinala si Hendrix sa hospital dito sa loob Ng university namin and all of his friends, classmates, and schoolsmate ay andun sa labas ng gate. They can't go inside the school naman pero pinapasok ng professors ang parents and close relative ni Hendrix.

Kanina pako tinitigan ng matanda dito. I'm not comfortable sa titig niya.

"Mayaman nga naman"

"Dahil maraming pera ay kaya na manupulahin ang lahat" ani ng dalawang matanda.

"Tama na po" alo ng babae na nasa tabi nito. I don't know her but I have guts na cousin or bestfriend ito ni Hendrix. She's pretty, stunning and she look innocent.

"Tama naman yung sinabi ko, mga mayayaman ang dahilan kung bakit walang hustisya itong bansa na'to" Sabi ulit ng matanda. I know it's my fault dahil sa pag daydreaming ko but it's not my intention to harm others. Nagkataon lang na doon ako dinala ng paa ko.

"Babayaran ko po yung—" hindi niya pinatapos ng tumayo yung matandang babae.

"Babayaran? Malaking damage yung ginawa mo sa anak ko tapos babayaran mo lang!?" Pasigaw ng Ina ni Hendrix.

" I didn't mean to ma'am, I was the one will be his position but he cover me up" I have my rights to say my words.

"Wala akong naiintindihan sa mga sinasabi mo pero di nabibili ng pera ang nangyari sa anak ko! " Sigaw ng ginang. Sasagot na sana ako ng lumabas ang Doctor.

" Doc " " Doc" sabay naming ani.

He's now okay, hindi naman naapektuhan yung nerves and baka 2 weeks from now ay magiging maayos na ang lagay niya." We thank the Doctor and naunang naglakad ang parents niya at nung babae papuntang room ni Hendrix.

Papasok na sana ako sa pinto ng sinarado bigla yung pinto ng kwarto kaya naipit yung kamay ko.

" Ouch! " Napaigik ako sa sakit. Hendrix's mother look at me.

" Nararapat lang sayo yan! At ang kapal ng mukha mong harapin pa yung anak ko" sinarado niya ang pinto. Nilapitan agad ako ng Doctor kanina at tinignan yung kamay ko.  Na strain daw yung kamay ko kaya naka confine din ako.

" I deserve this one" sabi ko sa sarili ko.